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梦~

2010-05-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

歌
女孩歌唱
听她唱歌
却句句哽咽
原来歌唱也不足
不足让她开怀。。。
遗忘。。。

累
她想逃离
还是
不知如何是好
压力种种
他与她的承诺是否不变
日子是否日夜只见乌云雨季

她的他
她的未来
她的孤独
她的内心
她的渴望
她的一切
她不想想

活在个虚无飘渺的世界
或与。。。
一切只是南柯一梦~

无题

2009-09-21T00:53:00.002+08:00

有的时候
明知道期待不可能实现
明明知道终究会伤心难过心通通痛进心里
却还是对某种事情深深地盼望他能梦想成真
是因为自欺欺人吗~？
还是不甘心的成分居多~？

有的时候
泪水并非感动才会凝聚呈现
只是当某些你很在乎的人不了解你的时候
总是无端端伤害你的时候
漂亮的水晶泪状将会如项链般川流不息
结果换来时尚无价的凤眼

女生有的时候
总是爱转牛角尖
想着有的没的
东西南北想透透
结果苦了自己
仍然得不到答案

不是她们愚蠢
不是她们不知道这样子做于事无补
不是她们不明了
不是她们想如此
而是思绪不由自主地去想着
也只能不断的一而在，再尔三地重来的想着

直到有一天她们已经得到真正的答案
仰或她们心中已释怀。。。

何苦呢~？
没办法。。。
要阻止她们的思绪难如登天~
除非你有了她们要的答案。。。

Nothing speacial =p

2009-08-10T05:16:00.003+08:00

LoLz..
Really long time didnt update here...
Well...
I cant sleep in fact or wats the reason anyway~??
Might be i sl33p too early so now woke up~??
(Nah~ I'm a sl33ping pig tho ~ =p)
Due to the haze...
that's the fact...
zzz
3am ord woke up -.-"
aihzz...
but luckily i slpt on around 10sth...
rili very uncomfortable and hard to breath...
suddenly so smelly...
sweat de le...
even wearing mask oso cant slp...
aihzz...
Till here then...
Just drop by update =p

Have a nice day to all my friends^^
Take care

无题~

2009-06-10T20:53:00.001+08:00

坦白固然好
但适时的掩饰将会是必然的
当你不可能脱离原来的原貌
却被迫武装自己

当 [嘴] + [思绪] + [心] + [脑海] = [大家] 一起开派对~*

2009-05-08T17:19:00.012+08:00

倔强的 [嘴] 会口是心非
混乱的 [思绪]
和 [嘴巴] 总能双剑合并
一起配合地演出
一切依旧程序
完成任务

最明白你的 [心]
只能无动于衷
虽然不支持你所做出的抉择
他知道你大可以不必如此委屈
但是却站在原地
默默无言地安慰你的 [心灵]

顽固的 [脑海] 最不听使唤
常常爱鹤立鸡群
在突发状态
给你来个措手不及
或者在哪儿耍起孤僻之战
偶尔自个儿在哪儿玩起旋转木马

当 [大家] 聚集在一起时
就会成就为一种独有的个性
若此时此刻
综合的情绪通通存放在路人甲身上
当一切化学效应映现的那一刻
此人该会是痛苦迷惑。。。伤心沮丧。。。还是不可自己~？

What Color Do I Need~??

2009-05-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

You Need Some Green in Your Life

Green will make you feel alive, renewed, and balanced.

And with a little green, you will project an aura of peacefulness and harmony.

If you want stability, you've got to get a little green in your life!

For extra punch: Combine green with blue or purple

The downside of green: It can promote jealousy in yourself or others

The consequences of more green in your life:

You will be drawn to a new life path

You will feel free to pursue new ideas and interests, no matter how strange

You will be released from the demands and concerns of others

What Color Do You Need?

" ~CPR~ "

2009-04-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

Does anyone know how to form CPR~?
Let me explain this here...
After this...
You will know..xp

Let me make a brief introduction 1st...

CPR=CardioPulmonary Resuscitation
EAR= Expired Air Resuscitation
ECC=External Chest Compression

So,
in order to form CPR...
Here is the formulae...
CPR = ECC + EAR ---(1)

which is
CardioPulmonary Resuscitation = External Chest Compression + Expired Air Resuscitation

Next
ECC = CPR - EAR ----(2)

Which is
External Chest Compression = CardioPulmonary Resuscitation - Expired Air Resuscitation

Or
EAR = CPR - ECC----(3)

Which is
Expired Air Resuscitation = CardioPulmonary Resuscitation - External Chest Compression

In order to form CPR
New substitution
CPR = Chin Pin Rui---(4)

So..
In order to form CPR
Substitution is required
after subtitute the equation 4 into equation 1
it become like this
Chin Pin Rui = EAR + ECC

Means that in order to form EAR
Shud b come out with this equation
EAR = CPR - ECC

Finally....
the most important part..
Lolz...
ECC = CPR - EAR

haha...
have fun..;)
hope u guys understand and know the sense of humor in between
Kakaxx...

猜不透~*

2009-04-23T22:33:00.001+08:00

猜不透
你最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过
且过无法感受每次触摸
是真的是热的

如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过到

底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追求
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

七个对不起~~*

2009-04-23T19:43:00.003+08:00

男孩和女孩从小就认识，
男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，
每次男孩总是满载而归，
女孩却是两手空空，
女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，
独自一个人回到家，
然后闷闷不乐。
晚饭前，
男孩敲响女孩家的门，
女孩一见是男孩，
扭头就走，
男孩追上前，
对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”
女孩眉头一放，
慧心的笑了，
就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，
转眼，
他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，
经常会把女孩逗到哭，
然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，
直到长大后，
也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，
然后躲在远处，
看女孩着急的走投无路，
等着女孩拨通他的手机，
然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。
可男孩，
依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。
他窃窃的从远处走来，
灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，
任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，
男孩却暗自窃喜，
然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”
随即，
女孩便会柔弱下来，
告诉男孩下次不允许那样，
男孩点头，
于是，
那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，
男孩和女孩各自有了工作，
男孩的工作总是很忙，
有时一个月都休息不到一次，
而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，
终于，
他们有了第一次的吵架。
女孩委屈的哭起来，
可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”
这场冷战持续了很久。
终于，
女孩还是忍不住，
主动和男孩和好了。
后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，
可每次，
都是女孩先妥协。
那年，
女孩生日，
男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，
女孩欣喜不已，
她在家精心打扮，
等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，
这一等就是凌晨，
女孩在睡梦中醒来，
脸上挂着泪痕，
男孩见到女孩，
心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”
于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，
男孩的事业大有成就，
经常有许多应酬，
而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，
每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，
把家里收拾的干干净净，
她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，
男孩总问他为什么，
女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，
男孩每次回家，
身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，
而每次没等女孩问，
男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。
女孩黯然，
那时起，
女孩不太爱说话了，
也不像以前那么开朗了，
她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，
抱着枕头看韩剧，
然后随着剧情哭泣，
夜深时，
就会疯狂的大哭。
以后的日子里，
男孩回来时，
身上的香水味只有一种味道了，
女孩从来不问，
可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，
男孩开始不回家，
或总是在外出差，
男孩的事业越来越好，
身边都是奉承的人，
他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，
而女孩，
几乎不出门了，
她总会去超市买上很多方便面，
和一些必要的日用品，
然后把自己关在家里，
这一呆就是很久。
从前，
女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，
而现在，
她孤身一人，
身边没有一个可以说话的人，
每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，
男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”
女孩，
失落的扣上电话，
那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，
开始打扮自己，
她觉得男孩不回家，
也许是看腻了她，
她决定不再颓废，
自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，
而不是无谓的后退。
那天，
女孩心血来潮，
按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，
那是女孩第一次去，
也是唯一的一次。
女孩涩涩的按下电梯，
来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，
她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，
这里的一切，
她都觉得很好看。
终于，
绕过长长的办公走廊，
她来到男孩的办公室，
轻轻的推开门……
女孩愣住了，
眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，
也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，
更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，
而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。
那个女人坐在桌子上，
******的发出微弱的呻吟声，
那个男人，
仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，
男孩才发现了女孩，
男孩惊慌失措，
忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。
可女孩，
转身离开了。
男孩飞奔出去，
追着女孩，
那晚，
大雨袭击了整个城市。
女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，
径直往前跑，
往回家的方向跑，
男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”
可女孩，
始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，
女孩失踪很久了。
男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，
无心工作，
无心花天酒地，
他想不到女孩可以去哪里，
因为女孩没有朋友，
她唯一的朋友就是男孩，
男孩终日守着电话机，
手机24小时不关机，
怕错过了女孩的电话。
这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，
里面是许多河虾的标本，
有的在树叶边休息，
有的在水草里躲着，
各式各样的河虾标本，
旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，
他满心希望能够见到女孩，
然后让女孩原谅，
并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，
可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，
而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，
女孩在写完这封信后，
跳楼自杀了，
血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，
男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，
一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。
请你好好的珍惜那一个人，
不是每一句的对不起，
都可以换来每一句的没关系……
千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，
那对谁，
都不好……

Read sth from net just now
Well...
As expected
I cried again >_<"
Dunno why leh...
I guess shud b feel sad for the whole story
from sweet until this sad ending
Why such thing will happened anyway~?
Izzit as time passes
a relationship between each other
among couples will 4get how to appreciate this word in fact ord~??
Izzit becoz together long le
become a kind of feeling of get use to it
then will ignore or less care their partner feeling~??
Just wonder y the guy still love his wife but
YET
still can having sex with other women~??
Just let me feel that still that 1word is the best word to describe guys
"犯贱"
(Guys..Don't feel offended...If you aint such guy...you wont feel offensive..."Siapa makan cili padi, siapa rasa pedas")
得一想二
Together long le
Feel sienz le
No 新鲜感 ord
then wan search for new feeling from other gurls/women~??
Does that mean that we as women oso can hv such thought if we fade up with you guys~??
Why can't they sit down
calmly
and communicate with each other what are those problem~??
Izzit being so hard or spend time for your beloved just to make thing right and so on~??
Sigh~

Say sth for my ending
[Gtg continue my loaded works le...huhu...T_T presentation & interview tmr...see how i can die...]

“男人，反省吧~”。。。
该开窍
该觉悟
要学会珍惜
没有任何事情都是理所当然的
在一起了
就要学会迁就
忍耐与爱护
请记得~！
当初她选择你不是理所当然
她没有非得选择你或接受你的追求
你也不会是贪她好追看她单纯就盼早日把她骗到手
你会选择她不是敷衍塞责
她会跟你在一起不是一时之气
你跟她在一起不是为了炫耀或寂寞
大家当初在一起
究竟是为了什么
到今天
又为了什么在一起
其实答案一早就埋藏其中
只是恋人们长久了
都忘了
忽略了
合何谓当初~

My hse flooded~*

2009-04-19T20:23:00.002+08:00

Well well...

As u can see

My hse had a small flood

Sigh~

[Forgot when this happened already...just rmbr is the 1st free week~]

first time this house flood man

Luckily not too serious

Just kitchen and two toilet water entered ~~"

I just managed took this photo as i totally din rmbr wanted to took photo whn i saw such a scenery =="

When i open the door

seeing mny "fishes"

which mean all the slippers floating on water...

Nightmare ~~

Hope wont be having flood again...

zzz

雨的论解~*

2009-04-19T19:22:00.004+08:00

我想
我变了

以前的我
并不爱喝咖啡
几乎是能闪则闪

不过
如今的我
似乎爱上了咖啡~？

嗯。。。
就会喝了
不会再只是因为考试熬夜才会喝
偶尔也会泡来喝了
就像今天与昨天

无形中
每一个人都在毫不自觉地情况下改变着
变好是好事吧
变坏是自找的~
因为我们有权选择
世界上根本就没有别无选择~？

或许吧
是我们不愿看见其他的选择
固执地
一意孤行
墨守陈规地
守着当初的决定

如果一切都已经不能挽回与改变
那又何必呢？
不过自古以来
说时容易做时难~
当中哪一个人会及时开窍~？
还是自迷不悟~？
还是其他~？

这个也是当时人的抉择
不赞同某人的做法
也不该停止，阻止或试图荼毒或改变他人的想法
我们能做的就只是尊重他人的决定

再者
我想说
诽谤是有罪的
胡说不打草稿
惹事生非是无罪
只是
会遭人排斥讨厌
这类型的人
就是因为有你们这种人
世界上才会有这么多非言流语
是非多多

人的耐性是有限公司
炸弹一爆
火山爆发
可是死的人多

就说最近吧
家附近有一只疯狗
半夜三更就在那儿叫个不停
狗吠个不停
下场可能会有
一，第二天不知去向了
原因？可能变“sham lok" 了
二，被人打
应该还有其他的可能性
但
我就举例两个而已吧
所以若运用在我们生活当中
就是说明
记得要随身莫忘大狗棒

还有另一个仁兄的话说得很对~！
“妈妈跟我说，做人记得要交对朋友。。。”
意思是什么呢~？
我又有在说谁吗呢~？
呵呵。。。
Siapa makan cili padi, siapa rasa pedas
本人只是想写写什么的
就这样

~完毕~

14th April~*

2009-04-14T19:28:00.003+08:00

Although today cant celebrate just with you
but is a pleasant day for me spending my time with u all^^
Everything is worth for it
Love to be with you guys
Especially my sweet heart, darling, sis & my dar dar [^^]v
Water refresh-ing all huh today~?
Kekexx...
I like the aerobic...
Like the test run games...
Hope our coming VAD camp will be a successful & memorable one~*

Yesterday just being so no mood & recently really is my emo period...
hehe...
So like that laa >_<"
My apologise

Hope u guys having a great time too ya today ;)
Thanks to dar dar...^^
HappY 3months
Just want to say...
Glad to have you in my life
Ya Tibia Lybulu~*

SIENZ~*

2009-04-13T11:51:00.006+08:00

Start of getting sienz with the MEETINGs
Always " ...MEETING MEETING MEETING... "
This time AGAIN~!!!
So co-incident-ly AGAIN~!!!
Meeting chosen so ngam-ly AGAIN~!!!
On this month 14th AGAIN~!!!

Why always want spoilt every month of my 14th~?

Every month also like that~!!!

I owe 'you' ~?!

NEVER~!!
Rili DAMN it~!
Seem like being curse~
Just so damn SIENZ
ARGH~!!!
HATE it and I MEAN it~!!
I really damn hate "M-E-E-T-I-N-G" this word now~!!!
~!@#$%^&*()_+=-)(*&^%$#@!`~!@#$%^&*()_+=-)(*&^%$#@!~

What else I can say~??!

NOTHING~!

but

WE are just being so "honour" been stucking in the same club MEETINGs always~

50 sen~*

2009-04-09T01:48:00.003+08:00

Just now I knw a new fren
New member of VAD
In the same time
I also got a new sister
called 50sen
Muahaha XD
[I'm 55sen xp]

What a nice sweet and friendly gurl she is
Glad to know her tho ^^v
Hehe...

Here is my 50sen sis de photo...
Kakaxx..
[ Get from her blog >) ]
I stalked you--- Ning xp
Jiang jiang~~~~***

Pretty leh...
Xixi~*

无题~*

2009-04-07T16:43:00.004+08:00

永远究竟有多遥远
有多漫长缠绵~
是山盟海誓。。。
还是古老的传说~？？

当单纯遇上复杂
会否一切变成简单化~？
两者间的掺拌。。。
中性复出还是酸性的开始~？？

当雨儿遇上木头
会否感化木头让它重新生长
再度变成一棵树
还是无动于衷依旧自然~？？

当永远遇上瞬间
会否各自找到平衡点
让时间停留。。。
还是昙花一现~？？

当巧合遇上注定
女孩遇见男孩
是幸福终站
还是牵挂无边~？？

当真心遇上绝情
真心诚意会否感化铁石心肠
当思念遇上无缘
他们是否注定毫无交集~？？

当我遇上了你
又会有何等结局。。。

做不了爱人我们做什么~??

2009-04-01T22:57:00.001+08:00

小心的问对方，做不了爱人我们做什么？
　　
“我们做知己吧”！她对他说。他说：“不，我承受不了那份永久的牵挂与思念，没有人能做好一辈子的知己。”
　　
“那我们做情人吧”！她对他说。他说：“不，因为你是善良的女人，尽管我们的感情没有阳光的青睐，但是这样暧昧的词语是对我们的玷污”。
　　
“那我们做兄妹吧”！她对他说。他说：“不，我们的爱早已越过了兄妹之间的亲情，会有哥哥用带着柔情爱意的目光看待妹妹的吗？我不会做这样的哥哥”。
　　
“那我们做朋友吧，我只能给你这个了”她对他说。他说：“不，在我的心里你早已经是我的爱人了，做了朋友的身份，我无法面对你和你的另一半，也无法想像你和你另一半在一起的时候……我也无法抗拒和我的另一半同床共眠的时候不去想你。
　　
“唉，我们还是做仇人吧”！他对她说。既然我们都改变不了自己的命运，此生注定了没有相互厮守一生的幸福，与其这样相互的念着、痛着，仇恨的远离对方的视线，永远的找寻不到对方，也许会是一种最好的解脱。
　　
她愕然了，他哭了。无法想像最后能给与对方的竟然是这样的结局。但是他们明白，也只有这样选择，才可以保留住对方的那份善良与纯洁，也不再会去伤害更多的人。　　　
从此，他们消失了，没有相互的祝福，就这样静静的消失在茫茫的人海中。

A short story I had read...
Quite interesting and I think I kinda agree with the story as well...
Wanna share it with u guys..
hehe..^^

自由~*

2009-03-28T09:50:00.003+08:00

自由
何为自由~?
吾是否自由~?
你是否逍遥~?
他是否无忧~?

也许
一切所谓的
自由
逍遥
无忧
从来都未曾真正出现过
而我们也没有真正拥有过

如今看见的...
所得到的自由...
其实是无形中被束缚的
只是看不见
我们以为
我们是自由的

曾几何时
才能放任自由~

"...IF..."

2009-03-28T09:25:00.003+08:00

如果你是大河，
何必在乎别人把你当成小溪；
如果你是峰峦，
何必在乎别人把你当成平地；
如果你是春色，
何必为一瓣花朵的凋零叹息；
如果你是种子，
何必为还没有结出果实着急；
如果你就是你，那就静静地微笑，无所畏惧。
如果你一定要走我又怎能把你挽留
即使把你留住你的心也在远方浮游
如果你注定一去不回头
我为什么还要独自烦忧
即便终日以泪洗面也洗不尽心头的清愁
要走你就潇洒地走人生本来有春也有秋
不回头你也无需再反顾
失去了你我也并非一无所有

Found this modern poem somewhere when surf-ing net
Not bad
Got feel when reading it
All is come with an "IF.."
How about this "IF..."
"如果我都不爱自己了, 你还会爱我吗~?"
If I don't love myself, will you still love me~?

LoLz...
I would say recently many thg is dealing with an IF
If sth sth happen...wat would u think~??
I am 1 of the person who like to ask an IF question...
But mostly when ppl ask me back...
It will be hard for me to answer...
Coz it's hard i guess~??
And we never know what and how we reall will do when such any IF occured...

"If I don't love myself, will you still love me~?"
Let's say IF someone ask me like that...
I guess I will be answer him/her that...
"Yea~ I still will love you..."

Why~??
(After answer will pop out such question again...)
Because u don't love yoursef ord
mean that u nid sum1 to care u more..
myb to teach u or let u see there are still ppl in dis world who k u...
who love u...
who willing to spend time v u...
If me as ur fren or lover also give up on u ord...
myb everythg jz dats it...

There is a saying said dat if u dont even love ursef ord, therefore u hv no rights to love other ppl...
izzit true~??
Hmm...
Myb dunno how to love oursef if went to love other ppl will be ending up hurting each other or doing wrongful decision or...??
what else will happen anyway~??

Current Life~*

2009-03-26T00:57:00.002+08:00

Long time din blog already...
I guess~??
Hmm...
Actually I din really know wat to post up...
Normally when I'm too stress, sad or wanna self distracting I just will be posting up something...
or just will have the mood or inspiration to write out sth...

Talk about my current life~??
Not much to talk tho~
(I guess~??)
Having sweet and blissful moment every day now onward...
With the additional stress from studies, assignments, homeworks and etc
Feel that time not enough for me to use for 1day...
Often having migrain problem...(I wonder why..)
Nightmare often occured since past 2weeks...
(But not just now...I thought of having a nap...who know...As I slept...Jiang jiang~~ 11pm just woke up~! Omgosh~ I haven do my preparation works for tmr meeting and research as well...
Aihzz...
I'm lack of sleep I guess...
Yesterrday just sl3pt 2hours with nightmare interfece...~~"
Sigh~
Having quiz bah...
Bok Miang study...
A nice good sl33p just now...
I guess i sl33p almost 3hours or 4~??
Not really sure about that...
In btwn woke up by sis n messages...
What else~??
Oh ya~
Bz with clubs thing as well...
MRC, VAD & accounting club~
MRC, VAD will be more to this semester...
which will be having a nationl camp at Miri HQ...
Nxt semester,
accounting club for the conference event...
Basically is like this I guess..??
I guess I might be updating soon I guess...??
For this friday gathering and welcoming party for MRC,VAD or maybe Curtin 10th annivesary Open Day~??
Hehe...
(Not sure yet xp)

Just steal some of my doing slide time or can say brainstorming time to update...
Continue my task then...=}

最幸福的事~*

2009-03-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

你撑着雨伞借我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂後来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失

泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它流在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的是
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事

By: 梁文音

永远永远~*

2009-03-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

一直以为自己可以很坚强
原来和你一样害怕著孤单
没有你的夜晚　
星星和我一样彷徨
挂在天上忽明又忽暗
不知不觉窗外的天已变亮
原来醒的时间越来越长
没有你的异乡
只有冷风陪我流浪
我怕我的思念游不过这片海洋
别对我说永远
永远　永远
永远是太昂贵的誓言
我握不住也看不见
最后随著浪涛消失不见
别对我说永远
永远　永远
永远不是我要的明天
你爱过我就已足够
就算到了最后爱已搁浅
只求你留我在你心田
别对我说永远
永远　永远
别对我说永远
永远　永远
别对我说永远
永远　永远

Found this old song just now...
since yesterday listen at tv de...
Hmm...
feel te bie got gan chu...
I guess forever really too much le...
too illustate...
untangible....
I think treasure and appreciate the moment when together is much more important than having a forever promise...
which might be having a broken promise in return...
Aint that pathetic and having the sorrow feeling in the end...
or maybe even worst~??
There is too many unexpected matter will occured in such an unconsistency world...
What should we do in order wont having the feeling of regret(s)~??
Live to the fullest i guess~??

一年里的12个情人节

2009-03-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

情人节是哪一天？如果你只知道西历2月14日的西洋情人节，以及农历7月7日的七夕中国情人节，那你可就大大落伍了；「不就是3月14日还有个『白色情人节』吗?」，如果你这么想，依然过于低估世间男女歌咏赞颂爱情的天赋异秉。事实上，除了中国七夕以外，一年12个月每月14号都是「情人节」，而且每个情人节各有特殊的名称与涵义。

　　◎日记情人节(Diary Day)：1月14日
　　在这一天，情侣们会互赠足够纪录一整年恋爱情事的日记本，以此象征两人将携手走过未来一年，并留下更多美好回忆。

　　◎华仑亭情人节(Valentine's Day)：2月14日
　　西元3世纪时，罗马皇帝为避免已婚男子不愿离家当兵，发布了一道禁止结婚的法令，但华仑亭主教依旧违背皇帝旨意，秘密为青年人举行婚礼。他因此遭到监禁，并于西元273年2月14日死在狱中。后人为了纪念他，将他殉难这天订为「华仑亭日」，后来便成为世人耳熟能详的情人节。
　　在西洋传统里年轻人是华仑亭日的主角，他们在这个节日里郑重其事地为恋人选择礼物、鲜花，以表达自己的爱慕之情。痴情的少女则会按古老传说，在华仑亭日前一晚把月桂树叶放在枕头上，盼望自己在梦中同自己的心上人相会。
　　在美国，华仑亭日不仅是年轻人的节日，亲H朋友间也可以互送小礼物，以表达感情、增进友谊。许多商家都特别出售装饰成心形的巧克力糖、系着缎带的红玫瑰，以及郁金香花束等礼品，而各式各样的情人卡片更令人眼花撩乱。
　　对许多亚洲女子而言这一天显得格外重要，因为尽管文化上较为传统保守，社会价值观一般已普遍接受女孩子在这天主动向心仪的对象示好。

　　◎白色情人节(White Day)：3月14日
　　西方并没有所谓「白色情人节」的传统，在东方，2月14日女孩送男孩礼物表达情意之后，如果对方也有同样的好感或情意，就会在3月14日回送女孩一份情人礼物，表示彼此心心相印；如果男孩对女孩没感觉，只要刻意忽略这个日子，便算是委婉的拒绝。
　　现在情人节由谁主动送礼已经不重要了，只要有一方在2月14日收到异性送的礼物表达爱意，他或她在3月14日「白色情人节」这一天就会选择是否有所回应；而对已经在一起的爱侣来说，这一天则是回赠对方情人节礼物的日子。

　　◎黑色情人节(Black Day)：4月14日
　　虽然并非天下有情人都能天长地久、甚至曾经拥有，但谁说孤家寡人或旷男怨女就不能过情人节？「黑色情人节」就是属于单身贵族们的情人日。在前两个月他们或许既没收到甜蜜小礼物，也没人可以送巧克力，但4月14日这天，大家共聚一堂，彼此鼓励、加油打气，化悲愤为力量，倒也热热闹闹十分开怀，藉此消除形单影只的落寞感。
　　名为黑色情人节，在这一天，打算过节的人会让自己生活在百分百的黑色世界里，穿黑色套装、黑帽子、黑皮鞋，吃黑豆制成的面条，喝咖啡也不加奶精，享受黑咖啡的苦涩原味。

　　◎黄色与玫瑰情人节(Yellow and Rose Day)：5月14日
　　如果已经到了5月，你的情事还是没有任何进展，在这一天穿着黄色衬衫或黄色套装，吃黄色咖哩饭，就是告诉大家「I am still available」的最好暗示。春日融融，将黄色穿在身上，也相当符合季节气氛。
　　5月是玫瑰发芽的时节，气候宜人适合出游，因此许多情侣都选在这天相偕到户外踏青，所以5月14日也有「玫瑰情人节」之称。
　　在玫瑰日送人红玫瑰是倾诉爱意；送白玫瑰花表示仍犹豫未决；若送上一束黄玫瑰，就是说再见了。

　　◎亲吻情人节(Kiss Day)：6月14日
　　这是一个属于成双成对恋人的重要节日，在这一天，情侣们不必再害羞，可以大大方方地用亲吻表达对对方的爱意。当然，花前月下、烛光晚餐等浪漫气氛，对一吻定情可是很有帮助的喔！

　　◎银色情人节(Silver Day)：7月14日
　　银色情人节，是把你的意中人带回家给老爸老妈认识，或介绍给其他你所尊敬的长辈的好机会。当然，这一天的全部开销，都由这些「可爱的长者」买单〈为「安全」起见，你最好先确定长辈对这个节日很熟悉〉。银色情人节也是爱侣互赠银制礼品、饰物的日子。

　　◎绿色情人节(Green Day)：8月14日
　　名为绿色情人节，当然和蓊郁的森林脱不了关系。酷热难耐的夏日午后，不妨和你的另一半作一趟凉爽而清新的森林之旅，尽情享受户外大自然，度过健康而愉悦的一天。还在寻觅爱侣的人，可以参加Soju〈韩国绿牌薯酒〉派对，度过喧闹的室内绿色情人节。

　　◎音乐情人节与相片情人节(Music Day & Photo Day)：9月14日
　　音乐情人节这一天是举办大型社交活动、轻歌漫舞的日子，也是将你的心上人介绍给朋友、同事认识的好机会。而单身一族，更可以藉此机会看看活动现场有没有自己中意的对象。
　　许多情侣喜欢在这天就着蔚蓝晴朗的天空合影，所以9月14日又称为「相片情人节」。

　　◎葡萄酒情人节(Wine Day)：10月14日
　　10月14日这一天恋人们轻啜葡萄美酒，庆祝充满诗意的秋天。通常小俩口会选择在浪漫且别致的餐厅里共进晚餐，然后聊聊彼此对未来的规画，以及共同的目标等话题。

　　◎橙色情人节与电影情人节(Orange Day Movie day)：11月14日
　　电影情人节这一天情侣们可以连赶两场电影，或许先看一部紧张刺激的动作发泄压力，然后再来一部感人肺腑的浪漫爱情片互拭泪水。看完两人也该补充水分了，来杯健康的百分百柳橙汁吧！单身的人这一天也要喝杯柳橙汁，当然，想喝两杯才痛快也没人管得着。

　　◎拥抱情人节(Hug Day)：12月14日
　　12月14日，想和你的情人抱多久都可以，在公开的场合拥抱，向世人宣告你俩的爱意，也让寒冷的冬天变得格外温馨。尤其是那些甜甜蜜蜜庆祝过2月14日华仑亭情人节的情侣，到了年底依然能热情相拥，也见证了两人情意如昔。

Untouched by The Veronicas~*

2009-03-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalala alalala
I can't
La, la, la, la, la, la
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, or what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave... me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been goin' crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched un
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalala alalala
You can take take t-t-take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the lonely nights of wanting more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been goin' crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched un, untouched, untouched un, untouched
Untouched un alalala alalala, untouched un alalala alalala

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been goin' crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Been goin' crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched un, untouched, untouched un

Craps~*

2009-03-12T20:38:00.005+08:00

A bit bit pain occured in my heart
A little sorrow spread without reason
Feel hesitant...doubtful...
Sadness is not just sadness
Stress is not just stressful
Wronged is not just wronged
Can you feel my world...??

Freedom vs. prison
There's always saying says that we have choices
There's always viewing things differently to get different answers and point of views
Do I have a choice..??
Can I say yes~?
Or would you wanna help me to put a "No"~?

Tighten
Who can un-tie me~??!
Breath~
I feel that thousand of stones on my shoulder
Screaming
Nagging and advises of yours wouldn't help at all
I hate being control

I try to understand what you think
I try to be better human beings
I try to talk softly
I try not to feel or get annoyed or even frustrated with your sayings
I try not to think
I try to forget
Tend to forget~?
Everything seem like nightmare
Never ending nightmare
Kept go merry go round

Restrictions
No'sss words came from you
Puppet...Dummy~
Sense-less
Will there be painful feeling if there aint wounds~??
Will bleeding stopped if there is no blood~??
Scarsss might probably become beautiful tattosss if I'm an optimistic person
Raindrops won't be increase or decrease by hearing your whisper or my wishes
Many things can't be just follow with what you say and what you want
You think is good for me
But do you ever know what my thoughts are~??
Do you ever care~??
Do you ever knew overloaded stuffs will make me can't take my breath~??

"Cool down...Chill...Have a Kit Kat...??"
Don't be joking...
This is not commercial break...
Time is money...
Do you know time value of money~??
Dunno~??
Study finance please...
Or read some magazines to know what that meant...
Money money moneyssss
Yea...
Moneysss
Evryone loves moneysss
No money no talk...
Especially businessmans....

Unstable
Emotionals
Tired
Sickening
Hatress
Mood-less
Horrible
Terrifying
Wronged
Lost
Sad
Unhappy
Etc...Etc...

I wrote until here
But
I don't even know what's the purpose of writing this out
What's the purpose of posting it out~??
Who cares anyway...
Main reason~?? (I doubt there is even a reason..)
I'm just talkings craps to update my blog
Sounds lame
But that's what lame people doing and talking lame stuffs...
LoLz~

Crapings so long
Just wanna ask...
"How are you~?"
"Hope you guys doing fine..."
and
"Take care always"
Because...
"I care..."

Am I...

2009-03-11T23:09:00.003+08:00

Am I thinking too much or too much things to think about...??
Am I just simply feel mood-less or mood-less knocked my house's door and found me..??
Am I have the responsibility of having and feelings mood-less or someone should responsible for this~??
Am I basically abnormal today or abnormal too bored so find me "yamcha"~??
Am I just feel stress or I am just too tired..??
Am I getting serious or playful will be the solution..??
Am I getting fat or fats found me when I didn't notice them and they wanna have some revenge...??
Am I troublesome or in fact I never do things right...??
Am I sl33py or I'm more to hungry...??
Am I just mouth itchy therefore I wanna eat or due to over stress so I kept on eating non-stop...??
Am I not good enough or I never be good before...??
Am I overweight or I'm just fine with current...??
Am I just too bored writing out this post or I'm just silly with today unwanted emo feeling therefore created this post...???

SS~??

2009-02-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

Hehe...

Since so long I din update my blog d...

Just posting up someone SS photo here...

Kekexx...

(As revenge for teasing me~?? xp)

I think he wont discover this...

coz i din gv him my blog address...??

So...

What u guys think about this photo..??

Comment please~ XD

For more imformation please refer to MRC, VAD-57 official blog

http://www.curtinrc.blogspot.com

永远在身边---大嘴巴

2009-02-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

Baby boy
永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活

眼泪
她为你流过
也为自己掉过
对于你们的爱
她总是抱着坚强的笑容
错过那些时间
谢谢她的守候是时候
紧紧牵她的手
带她到你的城堡里

最近还好吗
想念的心开不了口
枯想着妳有没有好好过
担心着妳每天生活你好吗
最近如何
照顾身体工作加油
我一个人也会勇敢好好过
不让你担心多一秒
想念着
每天每秒我们故事
每天每秒说好的事
两个人一起散步
是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使
给我力量能够坚持

那些关心问候
翅膀一样的双手
是我最幸福的所有
心里面有你建的角落
脆弱时我能够躲一躲妳爱我
像翅膀一样温柔的手
我要抱着妳不要再错过
你的爱
是最蓝那片天空
cuz baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy
永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活
幸福
少了妳在身边不会完整
人潮中朝你走来
那张可爱微笑的脸孔
这份爱
不是悸动
守护一辈子的感动
这段路踏着幸福的每一步一起牵着手

心疼妳会睡不好
总是缩在床的一角
我要回来给妳依靠
哄妳看妳笑着睡着照片里
你的微笑
我们甜蜜得打闹
好希望微风把思念
代替我亲吻你嘴角
想念着
每天每秒我们故事
每天每秒说好的事
约定好去看的风景
爱谱成了诗
你就是我的天使
给我力量能够坚持

阳光灿烂午后
我又在街上走
你的影子不再寂寞
想到你的身边到不了
像个路人般看热闹
经过那个属于我们的转角
走过两个人曾经逛的街那些店
还有熟悉的画面
oh baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy
永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活

不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活

没有办法想像
那画面
一个孤独的背影走在
小公园
一颗心
需要暖
一双手
需要牵故事要有美好结局
需要两双手来写
永远
不是只出现在童话里的梦
在身边
眼泪加了蜜糖甜
这句点
要完美画在无名指上
承诺的开始
恋人们
要一起珍藏

无题~*

2009-02-07T09:46:00.003+08:00

悠悠地走在海边的一角
望着天空静静地呼吸
想寻找我爱的你的足迹
可我知道这一刻
我呼吸的这个城市
没有你的气息
也没有你的影子陪我作伴

仰望着天空
恢恢阴阴冰冰凉凉
混乱思绪纠缠中被冻结了
海水不停拍打着海滩的声音频频响起
或许是瞬间的莫名感动
仰或想念的冲动
视线刹那变得模糊
或许是雨水忽然突袭
还是泪水的袭击
此刻的我糊涂了
也许并不是我在哭泣
而是雨水滴答在我脸庞
也许我是传说中雨人
不是现实中的泪人

随着风的吹起
冷得颤抖着的我却仍想朝着你在远方的方向呐喊
盼风能代我为你谱一首思念之曲
好让你也能好好想想我

Cool breeze
Soothening musics
Gloomy weather
Feeling calm
And
Miss-ing you

Woke up quite early this morning
I guess is too cold already
Due to the gloomy cold rainy day
(Freeze~)
Or i think probably yesterday early class make me today sot sot cant sl33p longer
Aihz...
Hmmm.....
Have the idea to write out something
So I decide blogging…
LOLZ~!!^^v
Now feel like kind of sl33py again..=x
hehe...

Anyway,
Have a nice day ya^^

原来你就在我身边

2009-02-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

在太阳下我们等了好久的车
让时间拉长了影子
也许我们一直是很好的朋友
你也是这样想吗
常常不知所措的想
好想跟你好好说话
我们的世界可能有时差
真的感受你对我好
而我也都知道
很想大声的说我很想念
你原来在我身边
我却一直没发现
想在一起的画面
瞬间胜过永远
我会陪在你身边
梦会实现在这个季节
我看着你看着
原来你在我身边
在太阳下我们等了好久的车 Hey
也许我们一直是很好的朋友 Yeah
你在我身边在我身边

太难搞

2009-01-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

你到底烦不烦我感觉一般般
耶耶耶不是我太难搞
我在等待那一种传说甜蜜的味道
破表心跳能冲破我扮酷的调调

唱 KTV 你爱升降 key
模仿大明星逊爆撑到频频破音
耍帅舞步跌倒让人同情
其实不做作不必刻意也许我会考虑
喔~ 害羞是种谦虚眼眯眯是魅力
有一种小距离想和你再联络
太逊太傻太扯太瞎不是我太难搞
Can’t you see 别会错意
这不算是回应谢谢你再联络

台北21℃

2009-01-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

放飞心情翻个身我可以赖床睡觉
也可以打手机找你闲聊
台北21度C慵懒情调
让爱情的感觉不多不少

逛的街有咖啡香的味道
和你一起吃出炉的面包
台北21度C气氛刚好
适合牵着手也适合拥抱

你的好我全都知道
但顺其自然的感觉更好
我爱陪着你笑爱陪你思考
想着想着累了就一起睡着

你我全都知道
但爱不是说了就会可靠
未来是晴天雨天不会知道
但有一天我们绝对到的了

逛的街有咖啡香的味道
和你一起吃出炉的面包
台北21度C
慵懒情调让爱情的感觉不多不少

好我全都知道

Random photos~*

2009-01-11T12:51:00.010+08:00

Recently took de random photos...

Kinda boring that time while waiting grandma buy stuffs...

New hair cut looked...

Pale and tiring looked...

Help Carol Ss =p

Aint she pretty and sweet~?? Hehe...

Smil3^^ **Carol looked kinda blur...

Drinks at Emart~

Green tea and original pearl tea

Chocolate flavour...

apple flavour

Overall looked---apple flavour, chocolate flavour, original pearl tea and green tea flavour...^^

Thanks to Zhang Yue for giving us such lovely doll from China^^v

[ ღWulala Familyღ ]

Carol's bear---O lala...

Mine one---Yi lala...

Ping's Bear---U lala...

My house bonsai~
Grow quite big d...
Hehe...
Maybe we got give them enough love..=p

Left out ping din took her recent photo...
and zhang yue too...
hoho...
will update again soon when i "stalk" them xp

Her story~*

2009-01-11T11:24:00.005+08:00

Being self-contained
Autism
Dereism...

Sorrow inside her heart
Cry out loud as hard as she can inside a nobody's room
Felt the sadness, being and feeling unsecure
Izzit empty house make her think too much~
Or something she never ask and couldn't get the answer lead her feeling even worst~?!

Matters make her sad
Sadness lead her cry
She wanna say it out
She wanna say it loud
Yet
Her brain is blank
Dunno what should she talks about
What can she do
Even she really do talk with someone
Self regulating and self control of her mouth works unintentionally
for doesn't want to let the other side worry
She wanna let them know she is pretty fine and chill

She can cheat others
but her frez know she aint fine at all
she is the only one can really know and understand how her ownself feel
People hardly understand her
As she herself also dunno how to express what were in her mind at that moments
Even now she also feeling the same way

No matter how hard she cry...
Feeling helpless and hopeless still occuring as merry go round
Izzit the end of that very moment if everybody leave her~?!
Izzit that pathetic without nobody loving her
What's the purpose living in this world~?
She kept on asking herself
But no answer was found

She wanna escape to somewhere far
Far enough to hide herself
For being able let herself feel calm and secure once again
She hate the feeling of unsecure
She hate everything doesn't go right
Maybe she also hate herself at that silent night

Tears ended~
She felt calm
She felt cold
Shee feel sickening
She felt her eyes were pain
She felt her nerves of her tooth pain like hell
Combination of pain
Yet not as pain than her heart do

Escape never changes anything or make things right
Feeling to be autism at that very moment
The moon was bright yet cover with some dark clouds
Forget about everything and who she were at that moment
She just wanna cry it out once and for all
Self indulgence-ing without caring her image and how she will looked tomorrow
With someone telling her "bedtime" story
finally and slowly
sleeping bugs found her
She fall asleep....

My sayings for this very early Jan~*

2009-01-07T09:10:00.004+08:00

Hmm...
Due to someone start "complain" i din update blog d...
Let me just tell u guys how bz I'm recently...
For u guys information who dunno wat I'm up to recently until din update my blog...
I'm having summer course now in fact...
is just a very short course which take 3week studies time oni...
And I take 2subjects...
Which mean 4days classes...
1day teach two or even 3topic...
then have lotsa homeworks n assignments nid to b rush...
In the same time might b bz with MRC stuff oso...(is optional currently...more on studies 1st now...)
plus i oso nid sum personal time for personal stuffs...
then...
as CNY is on Jan..
as all wanted to rest n dun1 hv classes on cny period...
so now having replacement...
Summer course just started..
yet I ord feel like im study half of d semester ord...
I can have continuos classes for 8 til 9 hours a day...
and i ord skipped 2times dun hv lunch d dis week start where today just my 3rd day of studying...
Wat i wanna say is...
if nth bads or goods happen...
I might not posting out anything dis 1month period...
myb after summer i will hv more time rather than now...

So,
I hope someone will "liang jie" and understand me oo...
not i dun1 update de.....
I will try my best to allocate some of my time to update blog^^

Memories~*

2009-01-01T21:07:00.011+08:00

Year 08 ended...
Year 09 has just started...

Sumhow....
I rmbr to bring my drawer key...
Inside the drawer...
Sth i bring along all away from Labuan...
Since I come Miri here study...
A box of memories of my past...
Inside have a lot of photos...
I even bring my secondary sch 纪念册
Inside of coz hv a lot of photos as well..
My fren rili gv face me^^v
Hehe...
I rili miss them...

Read bek my NS fren de letter b4 i bek labuan she gv me de...
til nw whenever i read bek...
stil feel touch...
still hv d feeling of tears wanna drop down....

"Thing, altho now we rili vy seldom keep in touch...
but as u said b4...no matter how u stil in my heart & i'm sure same as u too...
the another side slipper photo frames u gv me...
I stil keep it...d song dat u gv me...
jay chou de 黑色毛衣...
stil rmbr u sang for me...
altho jz short2 2months...
but ord can let u & me rmbr for life....
thanks gurl...
u rili gv me a vy nice memories at NS...
Glad to knw u...Will love u & miss u always...
Lao gong^^...."

Secondary sch part....
This 1 even long story....
Ying wrote most long de in my 纪念册
she wrote full full 3pages...
Ah Lai mah...
hehe...
u stil rmbr u write wat kah~?? =p
Let u slow slow think think...
HoHo...^^
I got a suprise for u oso leh...
hehe...
u stil rmbr dat time u gv me wat photo kah..??
Hihi....
rmbr~??
Or...
4get le...??
Keep scrolling down...
U will get d answer soon ^^v
Ying & Lai...
Kinda often cook porridge v u guys le...
Even v ah wei, my 1st lao gong(lei teng), Lu & Yi...
Altho there's sure good & bad memories mixing all together...
But,
let's rmbr d good...

Below are some of the photos I took v my Nooby hp...
Rili blur de...
Dun mind ya^^

This 1 is when I was in kindergarten...Still at Miri that time...Dunno have wat function d...Hehe...

This 1 I think when I was in secondary sch le bah...Not rili sure...Hmmm~~~

Sis & m3 on dunn0 which year de CNY...Took outside grandma hse....

Yi, Ying & Ping...Outside Labuan Library...

In the middle is my Lei Teng lao gong laa...^^ Besides her two side de...Of course is I allow de 2 wives of hers oso..xp Hehe...

This photo rili 经典...When we were in form1....

Hehe...Another one...We all looked so young that time....Time really flies...

This 1 is Gary...Boh song him de laz time...but since dunn0 whn...we become closer n closer...even he went to kk le...still if i requested...he will bek n meet us...^^ He laz time rili dislike take photo de...I think dis pic oso persuade him quite long jz take de...Using Alan's camera if i nt mistaken...He currently working at Genting le...He rili bz...Work shift till i feel like he rili xing ku & tired de...Take really good care always ooo...Hope ur "gastric" wont "fu fa" so oftenly...

This 3guys...3buddies lai de...Jack, David & Ah Nam...

Modern wei xiao bao...XD Ah Yean with gurls...=p

Me with Ah Lai....Shud be chinese class that time too free le izzit..?? LoLz...

Me with Ah Yean...Secondary sch f5 we sit together de right...?? with who else d..?? I rmbr u sit my right hand side...my left hand side is corridor..=p haha...

Ah Lai...

Are u prepare ursef d...??

dun get shock ooo....

1..

2...

3.....

Jiang Jiang Jiang Jiang~~~~ Suprise Ah Lai...Hoho^^

This guy rili gv me face...rili keep his promise lorr...send his pic to my hse de^^ Thanks Norman...He's d cutest guy in 5B...Haha^^

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....

.....

Next coming up...

My another lao gong XD

This time is a guy lai de...

I'm her smallest wife...

dunn0 he now got add up o nt laa...

Wakaka~!!

(Long story....Those who involved shud fully und y he so mny lao po...hahaha...esp Ying^^ Hehe...Cikgu Jaya there owez happened de XD)

Da tarr~~~~Our lovely Lui Lui young age de photo...Cute^^

Me, Teng & Wei...That time at food court^^

Group photo^^
See we very "eng ai" de....xp

WE~ That time Ou Yang tuition cancelled...I dunno y got bring camera...then we all sot sot le & play at the nearby playground there...LoLz^^

Playing "qiu qian"...haha...=D
Hehe...I still rmbr wat happened to u oo Ying...Wakaka XD

I rmbr y I bring camera le...LoLz...That time after tuition we nid go Wei hse practice for upcoming singing competition...hehe... Ah Shen...My kai gor...dis guy like disappear long time d.....No news from him...Zzz...Anyway, dis pic i snapped shoot de....as in....I stalked him xp
WE went to Sekolan Menengah Sains to listen talk for Pendidikan Moral ...Meet Hafiz that time tho~ But dunn0 who hold camera le...close a side of d camera...aihzz...spoilt le dat pic...T_T

With Cassy^^...WE meet her there as well....Hehe... That day is sch gotong-royong i think...not sure is for Pendidikan Moral folio de o nt le....Hehe...5B rocks^^ Haha....with Cikgu Suhud...Our form teacher & fizik teacher...He's a very patient & high endurance de teacher I had ever meet...

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...

回忆过去

especially good memories...

Is just so nice de....

Haha...

Altho I unable always back join u guys or gathering....

even CNY dat big gathering I oso unable attend....

My apologise...

U guys will always in my heart...

Hope u guys dun forget me ooo altho I din bek....

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Last but not least,

Happy New Year 2009 to all of my friends^^

Mix ≠ Mess

2008-12-29T01:42:00.010+08:00

墙壁
原本就是冷冰冰
毫无感情可言

木头
总是木木呐呐
和墙壁不分上下

或许唯一不同
也许踢着木头
它还有可能跟着你踢的方向前进
墙壁～？
除非你想拥有缺陷之美

水龙头
注定一辈子流量很多
因为它是让水溜出的开口

雨水
是大自然的一部分
落入河流川流不息

相同之处
它们都是累积水的根源
只是一个味道是咸的
另一个是淡而无味的

突然眼前的字变得模糊
手背也顿时湿湿的
才察觉原来泪水
不知何时
已缓缓落下

原来你～
也会让我泪泉发达的一天

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宁静的夜
真的好安宁
为了让它维持
泪水已不再顽皮地滑落
奈何演变成可恶霸道的狗儿们
竟然雅兴大发
开起它们的专署演唱会
破坏了安祥的此刻
两个字形容: "可恶~!!!"

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混合着的想念
你不曾察觉的永远
就让风儿悄悄地把他带走
也许有一天
当风不经意地吹过你身旁
你会听见风儿悄悄地告诉你

“小雨想你了。。。”

Rains come for a visit in Xmas at Miri~*

2008-12-25T18:31:00.011+08:00

Since jz nw morning d rain started to pour...
Until now still not feel like wan to stop---
I mean the rain...
Can say rain whole day...
Izzit because today is Xmas...???
Instead of having snows...
So we're having rains...??
Lotsa raindrops instead of lotsa snows fall...
LoLz~??

Rainny day...
Which indirectly link me to think of snow...
Remind me the chorus part of a song that I had made...

"Rain rain rain stop...
Snow snow oh start to fall...
..............(Spring spring spring gone....)
Summer followed by autumn comes.....
Dear oh dear oh Lavender...
Have your awaited lover comes....
Sweet sweet memories love song...
Next winter still I love you..."

Forgotten one line of the song d...
If not wrong shud b like dat in the bracket...
LoLz...>_<"
Well...
"xian chou" le....
My lousy lyric....
hehe ~~
Gloomy windy day of this year Xmas make me think of that year that Xmas...
also like now...
rainning heavily...
but wat different v laz time was...
Laz time is the most heavy rain & d winds blows like siao...
A scenery I cant 4get...

Get news from sis dat family ord arrived Beaufort d...
Coz 9pm de ferry din take passagers but just those stuffs...
So they stay a night at Beaufort...
Kinda worry de...
Mny days ago...
get news from my neighbour...
told my mum our hse got sum ppl went in n knocked d door...
Coz jz left she n her "jia gong"...
She dun dare go out see wat happened...
Hope my hse wont "visit" by thieves...
Pray hard~!!
Hopefully everyth will be fine...

25.12.08

2008-12-25T07:56:00.003+08:00

Today is Christmas...
Most of the people will celebrate...
I use to celebrate every year as well...
As my aunt will invite us to her house and gathering together...
A day all of the relatives of my dad side will be at there...
Unfortunately...
My aunt passes away in the middle of this year...
somehow,
3 of my aunt continuously left this world...
2 is from dad side and just dis month another aunt passes away is from mum side...
Sigh~

Yesterday,
Christmas eve...
Which was also the last day I being able to spend my time with my famiy...
Went out as usual..
bz do stuffs...
At night sumhow im sot d...
Maybe wanna cover mysef de moody-ness...
Keep do sth stupid and laugh there v sis...
I fully can und acting happy...
d best way...
u will try do or talk sth stupid to make ppl around u laugh with you in the same time..
sort of like a clown...
Out-looked u can see happiness...
But inner...
U will never how the clown feel....

Today...
Christmas...
Yet,
I feel nth but moody...
Or myb sense-less...
LoLz...
They leave today...
start two days night my emotion ord not stable...
is sth dat owez will happen on me whn those kind of matter occur...
Can say that's my weakness...
I'm not tough...
whenever thgs link with those I care...
They always being able to hurt me or being sad easily if anyth happen...

***Mr Desperate Salted Fish...
Thanks for finding jokes cheer-ing me up...
altho mostly d jokes very cold n lame...
Stil thanks for accompany me this very early morning in msn...
***Tearless Bear...
Another big Thanks to u...
Who owez willing accompany me, tahan-ing the sleepy-ness n being so patient...

A lonely Christmas I'm going to have I guess...
Still,
I hope u guys having fun & enjoy this year christmas...
Last but not least...
"Merry Christmas" to all of you...
& "HappY Birthday" to tearless bear's daddy...

Labuan Christmas Atmosphere~*

2008-12-23T09:32:00.006+08:00

Read ah lai blog jz now...
Wahseh...
make me hv bit "yi han" cant back labuan...
The christmas decoration rili nice...
have the feel of christmas summore...
1st time i feel Labuan hv Christmas atmosphere...
Just nice...^^
Although jz thru pics...
LoLz....
Grabbed n saved down 2pics from his blog...=p
(Hope u dun mind ya ah lai^^)
As u mentioned...
I think surely will become the couples pakto destination...
Romantic tho o(∩_∩)o

Here are the christmas feel at Labuan...

Mathematics vs. Love

2008-12-22T10:08:00.006+08:00

数学在爱情的世界里代表专情与绝对，
因为1+1永远不会等于3，
所以数学是浪漫的...

My sister current msn pm...
LoLz...
Agree what she said tho~
Let me think of what i wrote laz time...

"...If 1 + 1 have the possibility equivalent to 3...
Then miracle might happen between us..."

Miracle do exisited in this world...
If u trust and believe it existance...
It will always be there...
Miracle means you're waiting something magical to happen...
Or something impossible yet you wanting to see something inverse would happened...

Just that somehow...
Not everytime impossible can meet "nothing"...
which become "nothing is impossible..." or "impossible is nothing..."
where by chemical reaction might happen...
The probability is higher...

However...
Impossible might bump to meet impposible...
which ended up "Impossible is impossible..."
Same kind species of matter....
Which hard to have or barely will have any chemical reaction...
Probability is less than 1...
In actual...
should say less than 0.1
Just like 1 + 1 forever will not become 3...

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寂静的街道，
为何如此安静？
也许等待天使的降临，
也许有一个名叫爱的东西，
莫名的在心里发芽……

冬至快乐^^

2008-12-21T12:49:00.006+08:00

Yesterday 6 she-males doing the 汤圆...
4 of us plus mum & grandma...
haha...
Having fun tho~
Nice^^
1st time I become naughty in doing while disturbing d process of doing 汤圆...
Hehe...
I made a snowman...
Kinda cacat tho~
Sum1 tot the scaft is the snowman's hand summore...>_<"
Lousy handmade bah...
My nails kinda long d...
then hard to made a small piece scaft ^^"
Uncle 客串 to made a rabit & a cat...
LoLz^^
But the rabbit ended up become lost it actual shape due to some reason xp
Hehe....
Below are the outcome^^

The cacat snowman that I made ^^"

Mei did it de..Hehe...A bit looked like love shape...

Cacat snowman, cat & rabbit...XD

White color 汤圆....

The final outcome =p

This morning eat grandma cook de sweet 汤圆...
After back from "bai bai" ah gong...
Mum cook salty taste de 汤圆...
My comment...
1 english word----Nice^^
1 Japanese word---Ichiban *^^*
KakaxXx...
Even my yougest sis who mostly eat less de oso eat more than usual...
As for me..
hehe...
no nid say laaa...
I so like to eat and big eat de...
All together I eat 3big bowls salty taste 汤圆 & 1 cup of sweet 汤圆 *^^*
Hohoho...
Hmm...
The size of the bowl is those normally outside eat de big bowl of mee soup of kueh tiaw soup...
Dad see me oso O_O
hehehe^^"
Paiseh paiseh...
Salty taste de 汤圆 is rili nice..!!
Not weird at all...
wan me 3meals eat dat i oso willing...^^v

Have u all taken ur 汤圆~??^^
Last but not least...
Wish all of u
"~ Happy Winter Solstice @ 冬至快乐^^ ~ "

If...

2008-12-19T15:25:00.005+08:00

If I'm just me...
while you're just you...
If I will always just be myself...
while you will always just be yourself...
If I'm forever just who I am...
while you will forever just whom you are...
If you and me are imposible to become us...
If 1 + 1 impossible to become two...
If being honest will never make things clear...
If communication will never become understanding each other...
If understanding each other will never bring two heart to become closer...
If your heart will never open for me...
If my heart hardly let you stay inside as well...
If everything above will happen...
If whatever happened will lead to
heart broken...
sorrow...
sadness....
and so forth...
Don't ever cross the line...

If everything is just If...
what will you and me become...??
Maybe...
we will never meet each other...
Maybe...
We are just strangers afterall...

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Say 1st...
I'm okie..
I'm fine...
nth happen lead me to write d above thg...
Dun sensitive...XD
Inspiration which lead me write the above thingy..=p

不够成熟~*

2008-12-19T15:18:00.003+08:00

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

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我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一刻我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

A song by by2...
Not mature enough~
sang by 2cute under age sweet gurls....
Sad listen will even sad I guess..??
LoLz...
Not sure...
Myb u guys can download and listen...
then u can gv comment wat d feeling dis song gv u...
mainly is saying about a gurl pretend to be strong...
pretend everything even tho she still care...
Maybe ignore and put aside those kind of feeling will b the best way....
dat wat i found out in dis song lyric...
my observation~
Btw,
by2 songs....
not bad to listen^^

Tanjobi Omedeto to my Beloved sis^^

2008-12-17T19:22:00.006+08:00

17th of Dec...
One of my beloved sis bday^^
The laz 1 celebrating every yr...
Well...
In order to reduce "ma fan"...
Everything just make it simple...
Unable eat mum bake de cake as well..
was hoping to eat she bake de cake tho~
Aihzz..
no "kou fu" then...

Bought my sis bday cake oso gone thru mny obstacles...
Here de cake house...
Nid early book 1...
1 cake nid use 12hours time to do...
I wonder wat cake they do arr...
nid 12hours...
unlike Labuan...
Morning order...
afternoon can take d...
aihzzzz...
Plan book at "sweet bun" cake house...
who d worker who bake cake resigned his post d...
that cake house 20th dec just start bake cake...
Zzz...

Ended up bought a cake at "blueberry"...
Well...
the worker there oso...
speechless...
d way they serve d customer...
Impolite~
If i were mum....
I wont buy at dat cake house d...
Less choice not to mention...
impolite and make the customer unsatisfied is the big problem...
sweat...=="

Black forest birthday cake for my beloved sis....

She's very happy^^ haha...

Last but not least...
HappY Birthday once again...
My beloved lovely sis...
May all ur dreams come true yo...
Stay healthy & happ always and forever~*
Hehe...

不顾一切的爱...痴心绝对...我懂了她...手放开...你们要快乐...远走高飞...

2008-12-17T18:22:00.006+08:00

当你边飞边流下泪滴
我不认为谁变了心
你不过是累了去旅行
而我是家永远会等你
听说你的爱碰上雨季
又湿了又冷生了一场病
心疼的我想给你暖意
倔强的你不让我走近
月光在你眼里
你说你没资格让我呵护疼惜
就算我真能??弃一切
你又怎么去战胜自己
不顾一切的爱才算是爱
从来没有感慨一路走来
不记得悲哀只记得愉快
总想为你实现你的期待
不顾一切的爱无可取代
所受的伤害都像是告白
我不走开等你随时再回来

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想用一杯Latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

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我好想她
现在好吗
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎
那年的夏结束时说的话
一直不能放下
她说爱啊
爱很伟大
所以才能让她勇敢离开
当时的我
不明白为什么
直到时间白了头发
我懂了她
她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
她的眼里进了沙
她算了吧够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎
我懂了她
不要我为她牵挂
她说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情
她放了吧走了吧
不想要彼此受伤
她那么傻

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我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

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你哭着拿下银手链还我的时候
最近你躲我有了理由
别说我的爱让你惭愧不配拥有
珍惜不就是温柔
但你说抱歉爱上了我的好朋友
原来心酸比心痛难受
茫然的走到了门口
倔强还是念旧
我听见我回头说
你们要快乐要天长地久
你们没有错爱是自由
走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福我会难过
成全最爱的人不是为了看着她
寂寞
过去曾让你笑得很甜
不代表有权利要你纠结
虽然遗憾爱情也有它的季节
风不能吹就作最潇洒的落叶

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爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊
带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择沉醉
繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非
重新再出发
能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心里面安静得不像话
故事的真假
没有多余的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

位置~*

2008-12-17T17:14:00.002+08:00

月色映在我的脸庞
今夜适合寂寞陪伴
说过的话绕在我脑海不停的转
有些事总不能重来
我不愿意也没法办
所以说我要拋开这一切烦
你在我心里占了这个位置
才能对你透露所有心事
眼前的一切风风雨雨
需要我们携手坚持
我在你的心里有多少位置
只有你自己最能够解释
我相信这答案是我乐意
见到的唯一表示
不想在地表里消失
你给我的爱是无知还不懂事
现在我才慢慢发现我的坚持
痛依然在我心里还浑然不知

Somehow is my sis's fault...
keep sang dis song...
let my brain now oso keep circulating this song...
sweat...
But long time din listen his song d oso...
His ori album I put at Labuan i think...
LoLz...
I guess is sumhow telling me I ord forget or arbonden his album d...
Yea...
Myb I shud recall that album songs afterall...^^

另一个钻牛角尖的时段...

2008-12-17T16:39:00.005+08:00

Sweat sweat sweat =="
I dislike the feeling of split hairs...
which need me to study an insignificant or insoluble problem...
It's sort of getting yourself into a blind alley...
Gosh~
That phrase keep go merry go round in my mind...
Zzz...
What that phrase really mean..??
What that person wanna imply..??
Sigh...
Can it just outta my mind...??
Best solution...
I know what's that...
Ask straight forward...
Just I wonder should I do so...
Zzz...
Suan liao...
Let it go merry go round and round until it sienz or tired to stop or just let it be bah...
Undefinable~

Things happened today~*

2008-12-16T19:59:00.006+08:00

Fully use my afternoon n evening today...
hihi^^
Learning something from sis...
Well~
I learn do that thing once...
Long time din do d..
4get jor...
hehe...=x
now interested in learning again...
Dis thg oso train my patient...
altho my patient skill not bad oso d de...=p
The outcome...
not bad...
what dat thg..??
Dun plan to say...
and dunn0 how to say oso...
connecting v hand made stuff...^^v
But in btwn...
I kept kena sis scold "noob"
Bo bian bah...
I quite ben shou ben jiao..
nails too long d..>_<
But i redo it once...
more better outcome d...
hehe...

Get this news in the afternoon...
Kai di Mao mao suddenly cal me...
indeed vy shocked...
since he long time din cal me d...
Well...
I shud smell sth fishy at d 1st place...
Sob sob...
He brought me a sad shocking news...
his whole family wanna transfer to KL d...
mean I couldn't meet him unless I go KL...T_T
Altho I din rili can meet him everyday n most of the time as we study at diff place...
But at least mostly when I'm back labuan..
He sure will find me if he got holiday and back dat time...
Gosh~
But luckily ended up...
he said he will back whn holiday...
hope he rili will...
da gou gou d...
muz keep ur promise oo...
If not...
Mao mao...
U wait n see how i will treat u....
Blekkk....
Rmbr muz treat ur gf gud...
dun dissapointed her...
got gf d spend less time care me i oso dun mind..
as long as u two happy n together "long long nine nine"...
If gt holidays...
rmbr back labuan bah...
esp whn i got back...=p
Do always take care...
Mao mao...
Hugzz...

I wonder how Bad Thing Guy now...
Shud find him talk talk chat chat d...
but seem lik i seldom bumb in v him recently in msn...
Wonder how are thou...

Wondering how's my future...
How if 1day I die...
wondering mny thing today...
somehow whenever there's sum1 near me leave dis world...
I will start wondering again...
Well...
The most main ques agn...
what's the purpose living in this world..??
Hmm....

2more week my summer gotta start soon...
time rili fly and gone vy faz...
Christmas dat day family will back Labuan...
Zzz...
I can ord imagine d how i will react...
sigh~
Left me alone....
suan liao...

安息吧...

2008-12-14T15:43:00.004+08:00

刚逝去的三姨,
请您安息吧...
愿逝者安息,
生者坚强!
南无阿弥陀佛...

Blessing...Attraction...

2008-12-14T11:39:00.004+08:00

Today go temple 还神...
To thank God for blessing my dad operation successful...
Long time din go temple d...
Nearby area having construction...
While wanting to burn the "money papers"...
Hmm...
I oso wonder why I will hurt my hand while turn the money papers...
I guess I turned too hard using finger friction with the money papers...>_<"
Zzz...

Quite merry at the temple...
somthing attracted me as well...
A cute lil kid^^
i think jz around 1 or 2yrs old...
is a lil gurl...
cute cute cute o(∩_∩)o
Kawaii^^
See her...
Mood rili good eh...=D
cute sweet lil gurl...
has curly hair...
small small tiny tiny de...
hehe...
I love babies & lil kids afterall =p

原来我什么都不是...

2008-12-13T13:24:00.004+08:00

That phrase...
Those words...
Somehow...
It keep turning round and round in my mind...
I care what you said...
It really hurt...
Think back...
It still hurt a lot...
A lot a lot...

才知道...
原来...
我什么都不是...

Maybe I'm not the best...
Maybe I'm not good...
Maybe I'm nothing at all...
Maybe I'm not important as well...

But,
I will always do my best for you...

The Feeling of Secure~*

2008-12-13T00:15:00.007+08:00

Feeling of Secure...
in Mandrin---安全感...
This kind of feeling...
Although tasteless, untangible, cant smell it at all...
But at least we able feel it...
I'm kinda emotional gal...
And I trust my six sense...
It works most of the time...
(especially when dealing with any relationship matter...)

Feeling of secure...
There is 1 song by S.H.E---安全感
Inside the lyric...
There is 1phrase say about...
"If u feel unsecure...
please place on ur helmet..."
LoLz...
For me,
I dun hv motobike helmet...
I guess I wont hv a motobike license oso~??
I will prefer hug my pillow...xp
Or find someone reliable to talk with....

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Ever tried hard to get to know & understand more about thee...
Ever wonder why I can't find the feeling of secure on thee...
Ever tried hard to search the feeling of secure on thee...
Ever thought I could find it...
But until now...
I still failed to find it...
I guess...
It's not your fault...
Not my fault...
Not ours fault...
Is just the feeling of secure is playing hide and seek with us...
But then,
Will I able find it one day on thee...??
Answer~??
It lays on how we think...
How we manage the matter...
How we trust in that manner...
Miracle~
I always trust without doubts on that...
But I prefer and appreciate more what we have now......

I stop searching...
I stop wondering...
I stop thinking...
and...
I stop to feel what I should & shouldn't feel...
(which decreases my mood swings in the same time...)
I don't worry...
I don't mind...
I don't even will think too much...
I believe...
If that thing...
that person...
Or whatsoever u hoping so much...
No matter how...
No matter what happen...
If it is yours....
Still.....
It will always be yours...
If destiny not yours...
No matter how you try...
How hard you've been working on it...
It is also fate u wont get it...---勉强没有幸福
(Another thought of mine...At least try b4...even until the end..nth turn out or get in return...still...Wont regret...I dun scare get hurt and fall down...LOL~ I dun1 regret concur my heart...)---The fact to prove I couldn't be selfish & I failed to love myself more...Zzz....

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Fate can bring unknown strangers together to be friend and maybe more than that...
Trusts and believes in each other are important which can let the relationship even harder to break off and stronger when any obstacles occur...
Respect each other is needed which can pro-long a relationship...
Having a caring and loving heart can let each other feel warm and let one's feel they're important in one's heart and know u still rmbr and care them...
Communication annd listening are needed to understand what the each other really feel and think about...
Proper advises and express out one's thoughts are required and must say it out in order to decrease both "heart desease" and doubts (if you rili care and treat that person as someone you care or important in your heart...u will say it out...But still...for me..depends...if say out will lead to even worst situation...better =x)
Misunderstood is the main culprit to lead a relationship started to crack...
Silence without explaining sometimes even make the whole thing worst...
(But keep explaning might make the whole thing from worst become even messy as well...)
Find a suitable time to settle are needed in order to let whole thing being able go thru smoothly or become better...
Among the above,
The most important one i think is still --- the HEART ~
A sincere heart...
Heartless...
Close Heart...
Everything is equal to ZERO~
(But at least got duck egg can eat huh~?? LOL~!! XD)---Sorry..being lame again =p

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Moon~
This few days I din manage to see the moon...
Unlike someone...
So lucky...
Can see the bright clear moon...
Walking under the moon sumore tiam now...
Hmph~
Envy..
Blekk...=p

Hot Headache Evening~*

2008-12-12T19:10:00.003+08:00

Dealing with official blog...
Kinda wan lia gong once again...
Get annoyed by the HTML...
Single wrong for that thingy...
whole thing will be mess up...
Totally cant post at all~!!
Zzz...
Spend almost 2hours posting 1post...
sweat =="
Plus the environment surrounded me just now was kinda like an oven...
blood pressure increasing...
HTML...
Argh~!
Hit hit hit~~~

But at least finally the outcome I'm quite satisfied with it tho...
Haha ^^
Hope they will like the new update...
(Although not much changes also laa...=p )

Check this out---http://curtinrc.blogspot.com

Survey....

2008-12-10T23:40:00.003+08:00

1) 爱情vs 友情
友情

2) 执着vs 洒脱
执着

3) 继续 vs 停止
继续

4) 等待 vs 放弃
等待

5) 受委屈 vs 被误会
受委屈

6) 快乐过每一天 vs 悲伤一辈子
快乐过每一天

7) 选择 vs 抉择
选择

8) 埋怨 vs 原谅
原谅

9) 默默等待 vs 死缠烂打
默默等待

10) 静静地守候 vs 努力争取
静静地守候

11) 离开 vs 自私
离开

12) 吵闹 vs 安静
安静

13) 轰轰烈烈 vs 平平无忧
平平无忧

14) 聪明 vs 愚笨
……… (轮不到我来决定)

15) 勇敢 vs 懦弱
勇敢

16) 外表 vs 内在
内在

17) 沉默 vs 抓狂
沉默 (看情况而定)

18) 缘份 vs 巧合
缘份

19) 口是心非 vs 坦诚相对
坦诚相对 ( but depends also… 因为当情况不允许你坦诚相对时，唯有口是
心非遮盖一切… 对彼此都好吧… 将伤害减到最低)

20) 吃 vs 睡
大致上，两个都喜欢… 呵呵 =p

21) 发呆 vs 上网
发呆吧… ( 看情况而定… 除非有我想等的人上线吧 =p)

22) 音乐 vs 潮流
音乐

23) 咖啡 vs 奶茶
奶茶

24) 巧克力 vs 糖果
巧克力

25) 白色 vs 黑色
白色

26) 阳光 vs 耍酷 (男生)
阳光

27) 诚意 vs 创新 (礼物)
诚意

28) 酸甜 vs 苦辣
酸甜苦辣都要品尝… 因为这就是人生… 没有经历过就不完整吧…

29) 花心 vs 专一
花心… ( 因为我花心不来… 可悲~)

30) 聆听 vs 倾诉
都需要吧… 不同时候有不同的需求…

31) 玫瑰 vs 薰依草
薰依草

36) 日本 vs 澳洲
比较想去传说中守护的乐园 (NeverLand)

37) 苹果 vs 橙子
苹果

38) Contact lenses vs Spectacles
Prefer normal eyes =p

39) Circle vs Square
Circle

无泪熊~*

2008-12-08T15:52:00.004+08:00

陌生的他：

酷酷拽拽的外表
总让人觉得难以接近
面无表情的他
总让人难以捉摸
安安静静的他
总不苟言笑
何时把你吃了
你也不懂死为何物

真实的他：

酷中带柔
呆呆可爱
健谈玩得
关怀备至
稳重可靠
体贴入微
恻隐之心
说到做到

总结篇：

总总的好但
有时会耍赖
有时会害羞
有时像小孩
有时会戏弄人
有时会搞笑
不懂得拒绝别人
能给予我安全感的他
让我天天像无尾熊黏着的他
没有别人
世上仅有
独一无二的
就是他
无泪熊

Tattoo~*

2008-12-08T14:46:00.002+08:00

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change A moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

I not sure how long this song out d...
Hehe...
Probably when I listen the song of God loves ugly that song...
Just notice this song from sis...
(I know I'm outdated >_<")
Anyway,
I like this song^^

多元化的分手理由~*

2008-12-08T12:56:00.001+08:00

毕竟曾经爱得要生要死，一刀两断了，分手了，也得有个完美的句号，是借口是事实都好，始终要交待
下。以下的分手理由，你可能会觉得有点不可思议，但一笑解千愁，也未尝不是个办法……

　　哲学上的说法：“我们终究无法清除结构主义上的二元对立矛盾，是该迈向解构主义的时候了。”

　　物理学上的说法： “请原谅不能承受你在床上的重力加速度。”

　　数学上的说法：“我已厌倦你的平面，因为，我爱上一个拥有超大弧形的女人。”

　　宗教学上的说法：“缘起性空，诸法轮转，是以一切生减俱为无常幻象。施主保重，就此告别。”

　　乐理上的说法：“我们拥有最美的恋曲，那是我生命中最珍贵的交响乐。不过，是该下休止符的时候
了……”

Saturday Nitez~*

2008-12-08T01:40:00.005+08:00

1st time on duty at night...
Well...
Not bad laa in fact...
I quite enjoy it as well...
Just in btwn...
Happened sth...
which i dun rili wan to mention here...
sigh...

Is an early Christmas event...
Parade~*
Hehe...
Rili 1st time see Christmas they all parade...
Laz time I see parade was very long time ago...
I think the parade is abt mooncake festival for sch making tanglung if i nt mistaken...
dat was happened i think....
errr....
when i was in primary 1 o 2 eh...
LoLz...
A blur memories~

Below are some pic dat i took..
well...
Some is rili blur...>_<
I dun hv a camera...
use my lousy hp took de...
haha...=="

拖鞋男人~*

2008-12-07T16:41:00.003+08:00

拖鞋男人
拖拖拉拉
犹犹豫豫
既逃避又渴望
总把自己保护得很好

不穿拖鞋
并不代表拖鞋不存在
也不代表拖鞋男人不存在
有拖鞋的地方
就会有拖鞋男人
只不过
碰到拖鞋男人的时候
最好绕道疾走

让他学学疼爱你的36计！

2008-12-07T15:12:00.002+08:00

第一计：不论吃什么好吃的，都会让她先吃第一口 (咽到了，她说我害她)。

　　第二计：永远站在她的左边牵着她的手，就算吃饭时也是坐在她的左边用左手握着她的左手 (我们在逆行，行人车辆从右侧掠过，我却坚决站到她左面，结果……)。

　　第三计：她的身体不好，陪着她去锻炼身体，陪她去游泳 (锻炼途中我随便看了眼旁边跑过去的女孩，三天没和我说话)。

　　第四计：不论有多忙，忙完了都会第一个打电话给她 (她还以为我很闲，开始怀疑我有没有认真工作……)。

　　第五计：爬山的时候她累了，要背着她，大汗淋淋也不说累 (一起滚下山……)。

　　第六计：她对紫外线过敏，夏天的时候为她打伞 (不小心一下没完全遮住，她怒了，说我不关心她，要我检讨)。

　　第七计：她不会用刀子，在吃皮萨的时候先把皮萨切成一小块一小块的然后再拿给她吃 (可能是我眼力不好，拿了稍微小了1毫克的那块给她，她明察秋毫，海扁了我一顿)。

　　第八计：吃她剩下的饭菜 (她以为我胃口好，怕我吃不饱之后每天特意剩下很多……)。

　　第九计：在一个雨夹雪的夜晚，把鱼肉中的刺细心挑出来喂她吃晚饭 (我激动万分的说，刺都挑出来了，她高兴放心的大口吃，1分钟后我拨通了120……)。

　第十计：让她擦过鼻涕的面巾纸直接放到你的口袋里，看到果皮箱以后你再掏出来扔掉 (粘在了裤兜上，她要我牵她，我不肯，她哭着给了我一巴掌跑掉了，我坐在垃圾桶旁边祈祷)。

　　第十一计：看电影的时候，让她可以舒服地靠在你的右肩膀，抱着你的右胳膊 (她怀疑我是故意靠近右边坐着的女士)。

　　第十二计：她和好朋友出去玩，要会惦记，手机开到很晚，一直等到她回家的电话才睡觉 (她玩的很累，忘记了，第二天早上我照镜子发现自己突然老了许多)。

　　第十三计：知道她的一切爱好，尽量去适应她的口味 (她总是对我说“拜托你有点个性好不好，你到底是不是个男人？！)

　　第十四计：去外地出差，会想她打电话给她，如果有时间都会带礼物给她 (她规定三小时汇报一次我的地理位置，并且不按时抽查，礼物少了就要家法伺候。)

　　第十五计：不论什么时候打她的手机，都要坦然告诉她你在哪里在做什么 (我出门了，我下楼梯呢，我到楼下了，楼下居委会大娘和我打招呼呢，我到地铁站了，信号没了……)。

　　第十六计：你所有的密码都要让她知道，也从来不改 (有天我突然发现登陆不了银行帐号，后来知道，她家电脑里养了几只木马……)。

　　第十七计：尽量抽时间陪她，即使是很短的时间也会来看她 (父母似乎有点寂寞，我多少年没见到朋友们了，不知道他们还活着吗？)。

　　第十八计：晚上睡前打电话给她，会陪我聊到很晚 (很快我要找份新的工作，最好是夜班，看大门的那种……)。

第十九计：她送你的东西都要用心保存 (我花了三年积蓄在我家楼后买了间仓房，似乎，还不够，过些天还要贷款再买一间大些的……)。

　　第二十计：为她拒绝别的女孩子的示好 (在那瞬间，我感觉到狙击步枪正瞄准我的后脑勺)。

　　第二十一计：看到她的脸色不好，会陪她去做美容，一直等在美容院门口 (很快我开始整天躲避高利贷的追杀)。

　　第二十二计：在她遇到麻烦的事情时会为她想办法，安慰她 (她完全按照我的方法做了，没几天她打电话对我说，她想亲手杀了我)。

　　第二十三计：约会过后要回家时，要在公车上一直看着她，一直到看不到为止 (我发现有个男人出现在她面前，他们在说着什么，我从窗口跳下车……)。

　　第二十四计：知道她总看电脑眼睛疼为她买眼药水 (她告诉我那眼药水真好用，她再不为聊天聊到眼花而心烦了。等等，她和谁聊？)。

　　第二十五计：给她剪指甲，在她胃疼的时候用手捂着她的胃心疼的不得了 (她说我剪的又慢又丑，我用手捂着她的胃1个小时，然后她用死神的眼神看着我说，你怎么还不去给我买药！)。

　　第二十六计：会为她穿袜子穿鞋，走在路上看到她的鞋带松了会弯下腰为她系好 (我说，有空把袜子打包邮给我，我给你洗完送回来，她怀恨在心，我弯下腰为她系鞋带时被她踹了一脚)。

　　第二十七计：从不让她提重的东西 (她骂我很没用，整天提重东西也不变壮)。

第二十八计：去寺院上香时为会她祈福 (她说我迷信，又老土，并开始怀疑我是不是与某某邪教有关联)。

　　第二十九计：上网查找她喜欢的故事和笑话，然后硬记下来见面时讲给她听 (她面无表情地看着我被自己的笑话逗的哈哈大乐，连旁人都以为我疯了)。

　　第三十计：会为了陪她而放弃自己的爱好，几乎不再玩游戏 (为什么生活越来越平淡，我活着的理想是什么？过的啥这么没意思？我开始有了轻生的念头)。

　　第三十一计：知道有人追她会不安，会吃醋生气 (她说我没气度，并且不相信她，我为此写了份一万字的检讨，再也不敢干涉她私生活)。

　　第三十二计：真诚对待她的朋友，在她们有困难的时候尽力去帮忙 (有天晚上她终于忍受不住，打电话给我最后通牒说，“和我朋友保持点距离，不然就和我保持距离！”然后挂掉了电话)。

　　第三十三计：保留我们的合影，并告诉周围所有的人我们是情侣 (我不明白，为什么他们在背后叫我鸡婆)。

　　第三十四计：看到她流泪会着急，看到她高兴会开心 (我每天在着急与开心间轮转N次，没多久我预订了每周去看一次心理医生)。

　　第三十五计：会为她流泪，担心和失眠 (我终于断定，自己上辈子是个女人)。

　　第三十六计：真心爱她，并对她说你会娶她 (真心滴哦~) (十几年后，我经常听见她对孩子们抱怨说“你们长大以后要言而有信，绝对别学你爸，说了1000次会娶我，结果只娶了我一次！)。

LoLx...
Some really funny laa...
Haha...
This couple really...
LOL~ ^^

男人，学会读懂女人的十个眼神儿

2008-12-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

一、男人千万要记住，自家女人绝对不要拿来和别的女人比较。

　　不要老说别人的老婆如何如何好，别数落她不漂亮，她能嫁给你那是你的福气，你还这么说，真是很不应该。对大多数女人来说，听到自己最爱的人说她的一句好那是比所有人说她的好加起来还受用。何况，爱她还忍心伤害她吗？

　　二、不可以三天两头的冷落她。

　　女人都是敏感多疑的，她会把很多事情往消极的方向想。

　　其实出门前的一个蜻蜓点水的吻、回家推开门时的一个拥抱都会让你的女人以后想起来感动万分，这些对于男人一点都不难做到，不是吗？记得在你难过时告诉她让两人一起分担，在她难过时要牵着她的手把手心的温度传给她。

　　三、不要摆脸色给你的女人看，一个对女人使脾气的男人是很可恶的。

　　你在生意场光鲜整洁，她在家中忙里忙外的，繁忙的家务已经让她有了一肚子火了，你应该要知道就是因为她在你背后所做的这一切才能让你无后顾之忧。试想一男人下班后回家说：老婆，你忙了一天，辛苦了！女人笑笑说：没什么的，你才辛苦呢！那是多么和谐的一幅画。

　　四、男人走到一起是比工作比职位，女人走到一起是比男人比孩子。

　　所以在她的女友面前一定得表现出你对她的宠爱和疼惜，让她觉得自己是一个公主，拥有了会让所有女人嫉妒的那份完整的爱。如果她是一个明理的女人，她肯定也会在你的哥们面前给足你面子，让你在朋友面前做个顶天立地的大男人。

　　五、和男人喜欢看美女一样，女人也喜欢看帅哥。

　　你可以吃醋可以生气，可是一个真爱你的女人其实看到帅哥的时候的心境比男人看到美女时的心境更加单纯，她只是看到一些美好的东西有些感叹而已，就像是看到一幅美的图画一样，不像男人那样会有更多的幻想。

六、老婆是娶来疼的，有修养的男人是绝对不会打老婆的。

　　如果真爱她那就一定要尊重她，不能随便动手。如果你已经不爱她了，那么你就摸摸自己的良心：我还能让她幸福吗？如果答案是否定的，那就放她走吧，让她找个真正能对她好的人。让自己别再错下去也让她自由吧！

　　七、女人喜欢男人的大男子主义，这样让她们觉得很安全。

　　可女人更抵挡不了男人的温柔，如果说女人的温柔是对付男人的利器，那么男人不经意的温柔对于女人绝对是可以说是核武器。但是女人也有自己天性那就是天生的母性情结，她偶尔会把你当做自己的孩子一样处处宠爱着，但你要记住不要得寸进迟。

　　八、家庭永远是第一。

　　男人固然要对工作负责，却也要有职业道德，要从工作中得到乐趣，但不要做工作的奴隶，我们工作是为了更快乐地和家人在一起，享受生活很重要，记得不定时地和你们妻子和你的孩子一起享天伦之乐。

　　九、爱人的父母就是自己的父母，将心比心，爱屋及乌。

　　老吾老以及人之老，只要内心深处真正感到这就是我自己的父母，心理上对老人依恋亲密，老人会感受到这份真心的。何况，人老了很象孩子，只要象哄孩子般哄老人开心就好了。我们自己也有老的一天，要做好下辈的镜子，让他们知道怎么去尊敬老人。

　　十、两个人相处切记要坦诚、信任、宽容、理解。

　　不可事事隐瞒但也可在逼不得已时说些善意的谎言，个中尺度自己把握。多多站在对方的立场上去看一件事，想想她的处境，体会一下她的为难之处。记得：你是她最爱的人，你要理解她，支持她，在她犯错误时要宽容以对。

小心碰不得的七种星座男

2008-12-06T15:32:00.001+08:00

女性在日常交往中，往往会遇到形形色色的男人。从一个女性的角度看，以下七种男人应小心对待，谨慎处理。

第一种男人很酷很深沉。他们总是一副莫名痛苦的样子，愤世嫉俗，沉沦发泄。这种人是碰不得的，因为他们生活在营造的自以为是的悲惨世界中，爱得死去活来，却追求一种得不到的境界，他们若即若离，令女人痛苦不堪。他们误导了一些向往爱得轰轰烈烈的女孩，然而，这种爱情只是昙花一现。

　　编辑分析：摩羯座

　　摩羯座的男人是背着沉甸甸的包袱，奋力爬上山巅的大公羊。这个包袱越重，便越会与你产生距离。

第二种男人是过分追求事业成功的男人。有事业有地位的男人最受女人青睐，但若过分看重名利，尤其是出身贫寒却一心想出人头地的男人，他们往往会牺牲感情，而选择那些能在金钱、权势、能力等方面助他们一臂之力的女性。这种男人的择偶是有条件的，不是真正可患难与共的伴侣。

　　编辑分析：狮子座

　狮子座很有野心。许多狮子男都娶了一个对他事业或是社会地位有帮助的女人为妻。因此就算你不是系出名门，至少你也得是举止合宜，给他上司良好印象的淑女。

第三种男人即所谓的“浪子”型男人。他们交游广阔、风流不羁，也从不打算一辈子对着一个女人。但“男人不坏、女人不爱”，不少不信邪的女孩子跃跃欲试，试图用真情或纯情去打动他们，这只是一厢情愿的做法。

　　编辑分析：射手座

　射手天性花心，自古以来就是恶名昭彰的星座，他永远在追求新的恋情。如果你能让他永远追求你的，那便是防止他花心的诀窍。

第四种男人是大男人主义者。他们喜欢呼呼喝喝，一副对女人有多不在乎，"大丈夫何患无妻”的样子。这种人若是表面如此，而你也爱他，那就迁就维护一下他的大男人尊严吧；但若骨子里真是如此，那就不爱也罢。

　　编辑分析：白羊座狮子座

　　这两个星座的大男人心态不分上下，想要做他们的女人，还是乖乖听话满足他们的掌控欲比较妥当。

　　第五种男人油腔滑调，他们甜言蜜语，社交辞令一大堆，虚伪地恭维每一个女性，令人浑身起鸡皮疙瘩，感不到一丝诚意。然而不少女孩就受这一套，被灌得迷迷糊糊还沾沾自喜。这种人平时应酬应酬，做生意朋友还可以，切不可把他们的话太当真。

　　编辑分析：双子座

　　双子的说辞真是无人能及，他可以让任何一个他想要恭维的女孩开心，小心不要刚开始就被表面工程蒙蔽了哦。

　　第六种是有不少异性朋友的男人。他们对每一个女性都很关照，俨然一个大哥哥大好人。男女之间是否有真正的友谊尚待探讨，但若他对每一个红颜知己或好妹妹好朋友都事无巨细揽责任上身，自然会无暇顾及你。不信，试试就知。

　　编辑分析：天秤座

　　风相星座的花言巧语加上外交技巧当然让他们获得最佳人缘奖。

　　第七种男人过分注意自己的形象。比如，穿着永远隆重得体，出门前梳三次头照三次镜。表面上他是为了取悦女人，实际上很有可能他最爱最关心的人是他自己，而且比较自我，很少顾及女方的感受。

　　编辑分析：水瓶座

　　水瓶真是超爱美超自恋的星座，如果是你主动追求他的话，真的需要好好考虑下能否接受他的这点毛病哦。

　　当然还有很多男人不在这七种之列，如这样一种男人，他们虽不善言辞，但对你关怀备至，全心全意付出，接纳你全部优缺点，像大海一样宽厚地包容，愿与你平平凡凡地度过每一天。这种男人是最值得信赖及托付终身的，如果碰上的话，不要再瞻前顾后，追求浪漫刺激了，毕竟，我们都生活在现实当中。

还童日~*

2008-12-05T23:05:00.014+08:00

Yesterday after on duty and eat rojak + ABC,
Me n sis went to "ren zhao hu" again...
Hehe...
this time go play climb climb...
Hihi^^
Below are the photos...
Kakaxx...

[Sis climb-ing on Giraffe^^]

[My process of climb-ing Giraffe...My looked very funny ~~" ]
[Y I laugh until lik dat huh~?? Coz I tried few times just managed up...shoes too big n slippery...and felt so paiseh~ Mny xiao peng you n parents there >_<" ]

[Climb-ing....]

[Pheww~~~Finally...]

[See I so happy^^]

[This one dunno y like dat...Change face so fast huh~?? XD ]

[Sis climb-ing on the high high wood..Hehe..]

[My turn...hehe^^]
[Yeah^^ Climb up d xp]

[Resting..=p]

[Sis climb-ing on piramid^^]
[posing one]

[Posing two]

[My turn =p]
[Posing one~*]

[Posing two~*]

[Sis climb-ing on err....tangki shape building~]

[My turn...LoLz~]

[Our random photos on climb-ing another thingy =p]

[Proud of my sis^^ she rili pro...haha...=D She really climb dat without using ladder ooo...Climb up v her own effort...2nd time..Ush~!! Sis~ u rili geng^^v]

[Me jz ss there oni...dun dare climb..i scare fall...coz i too heavy...hehe~]
[Me sl33ping on d wall eh..=p angin sepoi sepoi...until felt sl33py XD]

[Trying to climb...]

[I rili trying to climb xp]

Hehe~
Me n sis rili jing li chong pei huh~??
That night after watch 7-9pm de drama...
straightly go sl33p d...
Until 2nd day 1pm sth jz woke up...XD
Hehe...
too tired d bah...
whole body suan suan pain pain de summore...^^"
But climbing those thg rili fun laa...
as long time din play climb climb d...
Weee^^v

On duty for Sarawak Junior Open of Golf Competition~*

2008-12-05T14:05:00.010+08:00

Din upldate few days d...
Hehe...
Too tired plus din rili knw wan update wat...
as owez stay at home...
nth can update as well...
This Wednesday & Thursday went to on duty for S'wak Junior Open of Golf Competition...
In fact,
me n sis jz duty on Wed oni...
Coz i soft hearted...
promise accompany VCHL...
ended up he overslept...
put me aeroplane...
let me B-o-o-m by my sis...
make me oso sienz...
zuo you wei nan...
nan zuo ren...
Indirectly make my mood oso changed.....
Y owez me yang kena...??
Rili sienz...
I do wrong..??
Nope...
She did wrong...??
Nope...
Who's fault~??
VCHL..??
Myb~
Sigh~
suan liao...
Being middle ppl is jz nt an easy job....
Esp dealing v my sis...
Zzz...
Wed on duty...
ended up with chit chatting, laughter and nth happen...
Thurs on duty....
1st case...
A kid have a lil wound on his hand....
2nd case...
Someone sting by bee...
3rd case...
A gal bitten by red ant...
(quite speechless in me n my sis point of view...)
jz apply kinyak kapak can d bah~?? (That time jz think of dat...coz normally we bitten by red ant oso jz do lik dat..)
but got two guys on duty v us de asked Vannessa used detol to "xiao du" 1st...
kinda "kua zhang" (my own thoughts)
but myb better to be kua zhang then later ended up anythg worst happen...

For short,
Thursday on duty is worst for me...
Bored not to mentioned...(Luckily i got him to sms with...)
That stupid manager of golf club kept like smoking...
and i felt he rili sengaja....
Frm wat i observed...
he owez lik to sit dat table in front of us...
then kept smoking...
Wat the heck~!
Yesterday rili cnt tahan him...
make my migrain worst...
feel like wan take away his crigratte n throw into dustbin...
Zzz...
I dun und wat so good of smoking...
rili make my sick oni...
(not in mood dat day..who ask he indirectly step my tail...)
Plus the weather is hot...
make d atmosphere vy "yu men"...
although we're nt outside...
Still the air is nt fresh...
kinda like killing me softly and slowly...
the migrain is the worst one~
Luckily got a guy bring minyak kapak...
he offer me wan use o not...
LoLz...
How he know i got migrain~???
?_?
How he notice...??
He observe me~??
Or maye i jz too obviously show out and is written on my face....
"I got migrain" ..??
Lolx @_@
Then,
the lunch oso serve lately...
well...
lik dat i kena sis indirectly boom agn lorr...
she hungry d den mood wil b vy terrible....
I yang kena again..
suan liao....

Below is some photos took by Vince...
and he lead us Ss there on Wed....
LoLz...

[I have no idea when he curi curi took this photo~ =="]

[Some scenery views Vince took...Golf club of miri....]

[Our random pictures]
[Kena stalked agn ~~"]

[Vince ss pic(1)...](I wonder y he din smile n show his tooth de...not like the usual him..lolx...)

[Vince Ss pic(2)...](like vy "yu men" like dat...Hmm...myb d sun too hot d..~~)

[Help promoting....=p]

[WE^^]

{WE on duty-ing...]

[Me & Sis^^]

[Me & Vince---the bz, heartless & put me aerroplane de guy....]

Random post~*

2008-12-02T03:02:00.003+08:00

Finally finished read another on9 novel..
haha^^v
This time de title called [笨女孩的守护天使]
Read once b4 de..
Read back still nice....
haha...
Funny + Sweet + Interesting...
Another nice novel I recommend...^^

我用一首Demo跟你告白XD

2008-12-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

看你走过来
全世界变得轻快
开始摇摆
哼着你对白
旋律就轰炸脑袋
停不下来

不管编曲精不精彩
都想唱出来

我用一首Demo跟你告白
副歌来不及编排
I Love U
词写得太浅白喔
最自由的节拍换你青睐

高音唱不来
琴键都被我弹坏
都是自HIGH
爱到变天才
莫扎特都被打败
实在厉害

不管编曲精不精彩
都想唱出来

我用一首Demo跟你告白
副歌来不及编排
I Love U
词写得太浅白喔
最自由的节拍换你青睐

不刻意修改
就让我自然表态
自由自在
因为你明白所以歌词
不用唱出来
Ba La Ba La~~~

我用一首Demo跟你告白
副歌来不及编排
I Love U
词写得太浅白喔
最自由的节拍换你青睐

自由自在
Ba La Ba La~~~
Ba Ba La Ba

Peaceful Day~*

2008-12-01T17:11:00.006+08:00

Today still the same...
at home passes my time...
Haha...
Well..
(But I'm not boring at all...No worries^^ Indirectly telling someone...=p How's ur day anyway..?? Should be nice bah => )
Sis loading youtube...
Asked me wanna watch or not...
So watch v her...
Hehe...
While she loading...
I read my on9 novel and uploading old pictures...
Hmmm...
I re-activate again my Facebook account yesterday...
Due to CPR persuading...
LoLz...
He told me about the Golden Child Camp he participated last Saturday and Sunday...
And he rili miss his 2daughters...
LoLz...
Well...
Coz of wanting to view the photos oso bah...
He rili like kids tho...
I like babies n kids XD
Well..
Hoping to see those pictures he took on that camp soon...

Today listen Evon Yo's song...
in youtube...
Evon Ho sang Jay's song---雙截棍 in 抒情版...
Rili nice eh...
and another song...
I guess maybe is new song..??
Hoho...
Ord out at July tho~
我用一首Demo跟你告白XD
That song also nice...
He's talented man...
C-o-o-L~*
Pro in violin and piano...
In that 我用一首Demo跟你告白XD...
He sort like using violin as guitar...
Really pei fu^^
Haha...
As my sis said...
"Listen him sing song is an enjoyable moment.."
LoLz...
AGREE~!!!^^
Listen he sing songs, listen his songs, see he played piano and violin...
rili nice...
haha =D
Talk about this...
I long time din see any concert d...
Laz concert seem N-year ago de matter...XD
A bit over laa said N-yr..
hehe...
Form 5 dat yr bah...
The KK Nakamura de concert...
Lolz...
Owh well...
i guess today will be shun shun go thru oso...
No suprise...
No accident...
but nice nice passes my day..
Hihi^^
Hope ya all enjoy and having a good time as well...
till here ;)

Here is the youtube link to see and listen two of Evan Ho's songs..Enjoy [^^]

http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=W4d42Uts17k ---This is the 雙截棍 in 抒情版 sang by 蔡旻佑

http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=WPDPiGLyvdM&feature=related---This is 我用一首Demo跟你告白XD by 蔡旻佑

泪~*

2008-12-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

眼泪缓缓落下是甜还是咸...

眼泪突然无意识的缓落...

又是为了什么...

郁闷～～～～～

2008-11-30T14:34:00.002+08:00

郁闷～～～～
呜呜呜呜呜呜。。。。。。。T_T
本小姐今生除了怕会动的动物、昆虫、陌生人。。。etc (总之，会动的。。。跟我不熟的。。。请勿接近我。。。>_<” )
还有什么我害怕的～？？
你们想猜猜看吗～？？
那个地方～
都是白白色的。。。
气味也是独有的。。。
在那儿上班的人都得穿白色制服工作
应该猜到了吧～

厚～～～
没错。。。
就是医院啦。。。
也就是看医生。。。
Zzzzz ~_~
真是有够郁闷～～～～
听我老妹说爸妈他们回来了。。。
要带我去看医生啦。。。。。。
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz……………………

救命啊～～～～～
一想到我就郁闷
做什么事情也提不起劲。。。
ZzzZzzZzzZzzZzzZzz……………………

靠～～～
要怪也只能怪自己是吗～？？
也不是我要的。。。
从不知何时开始，
我的颈部位的右边淋巴腺就是肿的
热到的话、没喝够水、吃太多煎炸的食物就会更肿。。。
有时会痛。。。有时不会。。。
但大致上不会痛。。。
除非去按它～
那就是大家平常喉咙痛时，
医生会按一按颈项哪里是否有肿。。。
就是那个部位了。。。

都过了那么久了
也没什么事情啊。。。
我也好好的。。。
真的需要那么严重去做检查吗～？？
哎～～～～～>_<
郁闷。。。。

其实
我想我自己是怕会有什么事情吧
我担心。。。。。。。。。。。
是的～
我是担心的。。。
我悲观的一面又出来了～
难唉哉。。。

当然
我只会在妹妹面前或自己私底下悲观
或许面对盈盈、恺柔、品品、鹏鹏和较熟的朋友也能悲观一下下吧 ~~

话说回来。。。
说实在
也不知道何时开始，
在大学里
我已经树立了一个形象
便是属于爱笑或笑容灿烂类型的女生
也许有你们与我同在吧～
（一群女生混在一起，应该没有形象可言了 ~_~ ）
哈哈。。。
(Somehow I get ride of my old day those cold cool dark face looked...LoLz ^^" )

算了～～～～
--->看医生<---
放一边吧
没有答案的问题
到时候再说吧
要来的总会来
避也避不开。。。
勇敢面对吧～～～
沈妤姗～！
冲冲冲～～～
（但请切记别过于横冲直闯。。。小心前面的红绿灯和墙壁～ XD ）

～小雨自我开解的最好方法―――说说冷笑话、说说些让人感到炸到但又好笑的事。。。让自己ss地在笑。。。别人也可能会笑。。。〖怎么感觉上有点白痴啊自己傻笑～ ZzzZzz… 〗这也是一直以来让我自己恢复开朗的最好方法。。。{没办法…管它的白痴呢。。。开心就好咯^^v} ～

一语惊醒梦中人...??

2008-11-29T20:45:00.002+08:00

---Don't waste your time on a man/woman
who doesn't willing to waste their time on you----

Read this phrase from an email from my sis today...
Hmm...
It make me wonder...
Wonder-ing something and some matters...
Haha...

I guess it's true of that phrase...
一语惊醒梦中人~
People who often create those phrase hv their 道理...
But how many people can say it and do it...??
Comfort a person is far more easier than the one who need to go thru and get over the matter and obstacles by him/herself...

番外篇

Sweets stuffs~
Eg: chocolates, cakes, sweets,ice-creams and etc...
Seem like rili have the ability to make a person's mood recover to a normal level..
Haha...
But remember don't overdose...=p
It might lead to diabetes or fatness such "deseases"...

Top three things I hope I can realising it soon~*

2008-11-27T23:14:00.005+08:00

In Love Again
When you smile My life becomes a ray of light
Sing me a lullaby To sleep at midnight
I’ll be hypnotized When looked into your eyes
Turn off the room light Let’s spend the night
* Take me to far away
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain
For which I’ll repay someday
With a kiss and say
Can’t believe that I’m in love
In love again

When the stars don’t shine
And when the birds don’t fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet’s red
And when the rose turns blue
Baby I’m still in love with you

沉默.秘密我在房间里读着过去
一句句温馨都是你的口气
舍不得删除的大道理

这里的空气非常安静
像昨天一样等待一封简讯
和曾让我微笑的声音

当爱情过了有效期
时间拉长距离
只能用等待交换一个原因

你用沉默当作你的回应
试图把伤害调降到最低
也许这是你完美的算计
却让我傻傻等待奇迹

你用沉默守住你的秘密
怎舍得让我越等越伤心
请用一句话让我伤到彻底
不要不言不语期盼着我忘记

这里的空气...

Just now repeatingly listen the above two songs...
Seem like suit today weather...
Gloomy...
Windy...
and add up comfortable feeling...
LoLz...

Outside still rainning tho~
From very scary & horrible thunder storm rain become
Little pouring rain outside...
"Tik tik Tak Tak..."
As like listen to musics...
Natural musics...
LoLz~^^~
Nice & comfortable [^^]

Rainny day~
Unable see the moon & stars...
Suddenly miss that scenery....
Wonder if 1day I able lay on the green grass and see the night view...
LoLz...
That's 1 of the thing I wanna do...

Hmmm...
What else..??
Oh ya...
Watch sunrise^^
Wanna watch since laz 2semester...
But if just we 3gals go very dangerous...
end up din go until now..>_<"
aihzz...

Another 1thg i wanna do...
This a bit crazy n i think v parents around I rili no nid think of being able to realise dis manner...
Wanna go outside play with the rain...
LoLz -_-
I know I macam cari pasal wan get sick...~~"
Hehe...
But wat to do...
I rili feel like wan to do dat...^^"
Kakaxx...

Next,
I ever wonder how d feeling whn fainting...
If got chance feel like wanna faint once...
This 1 more sot bah huh~??
But someone advised me dont try it...
I guess I really should take his advises...
But I oso jz say if got chance...
Wont purposely go stupid stupid make myself faint...
Zzzz...
that 1 rili out of sight out of mind...
LOL~!!!

I guess that top 3 I wanna realising it 1st...
Hihi^^
Seem easy but hard to make it come true...
Due to restriction...
LoLz....
See how and when it will take place then..=)
I trust that day will come [^^]v

Hmm....

2008-11-27T12:24:00.003+08:00

Holidays passes around 2weeks d...
Finally hv the holiday feel and mood...
LoLz...
Recently what I do for my lovely holidays...
Haha...
This few days....
Totally having a piggy life...
Stay at home sl33p, eat, watch tv, sms, msn, cook, do some kitchen stuffs like dat oni...
Still left 11days to go...
8 Dec 2008
Hoping dearly you be around here soon...
Miss you so much...

Somehow,
Just now...
Someone let me recall my worst memories in Curtin...
LoLz...
A sudden low mood occured...
Owh well...
Ord past almost 2yrs d...
Jz let it be bah~

Oh ya~
Today is our beloved dear commandent Johnny Birthday^^
Hoho~
The youngest commandent of PBSM in M'sia...
HappY sweet 20th bday...
LoLz...
May all ur dreams come true...
and all the best...

Dun rili knw wat to write...
No idea...
Just simply type type update...
Huhu...
I think all my Labuan frenz back there gathering d...
Pathetic...
Enjoy~*

Tmr...
Huhu...
Another one BIG day...
wakaka^^

Most touching present I ever received~*

2008-11-25T22:22:00.005+08:00

Hohoho~
I think I cant rili stop blogging de...
Coz recently...
Family still hvn come...
And finally finished bz dealing v T-shirt software d...
LoLz...
now nothing to do again...
After blogging read on9 novel..=p
Nice novel tho~
called [~拽公主的王子~]
Funny and nice ^_^

I still remember last year...
year 2007...
That year I received a present which I feel touched...
but I never do really told that person...
Well~
Things happened...
I jz can concluded like that way...
I know is vy late to say now...
Passes so long d oso...
Yet,
Today suddenly went to see back...
and I really wanted to say "thank you"....
An appreaciation post for thou ^^
haha...
Although thou are nervous in playing the piano inside the clip...
Knew thou re-take d whole thg again n again for few times...
But...
It's still the best inside my heart^^
Bad Thing Guy @ Nosaj...
I really touched de...^^
It's really a memorable present for me..
And I will rmbr it for life^^

07 year birthday oso received another warm present from sweet heart, darling, dear n shake it~
LoL...
Like it a lot...
My orange "lobak" pillow...
haha...
everyday hug it to sl33p....
blekkk^^

Below is a clip---a present that I received and get touched by his sincerity and efforts...
Thanks again Dude^^

"I'm wondering ur spm finish d or not...
LoLz...
Take good care of the necklace I gave thou =p
Don't lose it ooo...
And those lil cranes also XD
No matter where thou go...
Always take very good care of yourself...
Miss ya^^..."

暂时休假不做女人~*

2008-11-24T02:26:00.003+08:00

I dunno how to describe my feelings now...
Feeling better...
But,
I guess I dun feel like wan to talk with thee few days..
I'm not angry...
Not feeling whatsoever d as well...
Just...
currently....
I dun feel like wanna talk with thee...

Will be disappear few days wont be blogging....
Wanna rest...^^

可恶~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-24T00:08:00.005+08:00

可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶可恶~!!!!

Really hate thee~~~~~
ShhHhhh.....
Whatever~!!!!!!!!!
I dun1 care anymore...
Sienzzzzz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

并不是每次跌落都有再爬起来の机会

2008-11-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

不是你要就会有机会；
众人云：机会不是偶然の，是自己争取の；
就算是偶然，也不会是理所当然。
不是每个人跌落了都有机会再度爬起：
靠贵人得力相助者，称之为幸运の；
凭自己の力量爬起者，夸之为实力派の；
得到机会、善用机会创造奇迹者，吾褒之为俊杰；
有机会但忽略者，贬之不识抬举の；
有机会但没善用者，贬值为可耻の；
没机会但硬求机会者，称之为无耻之の；
自身の思想，影响自个儿の局势；
正所谓：飞蛾扑火，自取灭亡。
自己の纵容，造就自身の灭亡；
一味の放纵自己，就会与堕落划上等号。
有感触の人，深思吧!

Taken from one of my sis post---废话?非也!
After I read it...
I also agree the above sayings also...
If chances ord by ur side...
Grab it or leave it~
That's all...
Clever ppl will know how to grab and get use of the chance he/she has...
As chances not always will so luckily let u bumb in with "him"
If you lose those chances...
Don't ever regret as nothing u can change already....
Move on~
u can recall the past...
u can remember the past...
u can take it as lesson...
But never because of the past...
stop yoursef to move forward or staying on the same place without moving...
time will never wait for u due to ur watsoever reason which u give ursef....
so do chances...
Once they move on...
once they leave...
U jz have to say goodbye~
Nobody will forever stop his/her step by waiting things to fade of...
Time can cure everything...
But we as the party who involve should put effort and step out as well...
Nobody can help us if we ourselves not willing to do so...
Figure it out~
LoLz ^_^

Having holiday now yet I don't feel like I'm having one~*

2008-11-23T20:19:00.003+08:00

Since after dat day trainning n meeting...
I become lil piggy...
feel very lazy...
Just feel like wan sl33p and do my stuffs..
the T-shirt and game proggrame I still haven figure out yet...>_<"
rili lazy huh~?
Aihzz...
Sorry~~~
I'm just really tired till I dont feel like doing anything...
will do de...
I'll pia in finishing it soon...
No worries k~?? ~~"
Aihzz....
Shoulder part is the most suffering part now...
Changed position d...
Not waist...
Aihzz...
feel like mysef like Lao Ah Ma d...
LOL~

Holidays ord started few days d...
Yet I din feel is like holidays yet...
LoLz...
I wonder why~
In fact this few days din do much thing oso....
Sl33p..watch tv...mostly still facing the laptop...
Facing laptop this 2days...
not doing stuffs yet de...
just blogging, check mails, chatting mostly...
Luckily got someone everyday accompany me chat...
if not i will bored til die...
LoLz..
Maybe we two mmg "eng" de...
Haha =D
thanks bro^^
[Don't dare disturb dragon-fly~ Seem bz...In fact...I know thee do...aihzz...suan liao~]

Talked about check mails...
Today I sent mail until their full limit d...
cant send withing 24hours jor...
aihzz...
I rili long time din check those forward emails d...
owez jz holidays sekaligus check...
but not check finish oso de....
from laz time dunn0 whn til nw...
Do u knw hw mny mails i got inside my inbox..??
600+ after clear some today...XD
Other accounts de mail box hvn check summore...
I think add up all...
shud be got 700 or 800+ bah~~"
cant imagine...
so mny.........
how long i nid to check...
ZzZ >_<"
Suan liao...
see how 1st bah....

15days to go....
I will wait for you to come...
Always I will^^v

时间 vs. 感觉~*

2008-11-23T11:24:00.004+08:00

时间
总是不停歇地在向前迈进
（世上最辛勤的莫过于它了～）

时间
从来不会为任何事情事物而停留
（世间最残酷无情也非它莫属～）

时间
只有前进而不可能退后
（它不是缩头乌龟～）

时间
等于时机
看个人如何把握
（它是可遇不可求的～）

感觉
也许是瞬间也许是永恒
（它飘浮不定...变化莫测～）

感觉
是抽象虚拟的
（它是缘分奇迹的代表～）

感觉
是内心起的化学作用
（它的效果无人能预测～）

感觉
等于感情
看双方如何处理
（它的可能性是零或一～）

时间与感觉
就如学习科学的我们
有两个变数可使用～
一个是操从性变数
另一个是依赖性变数
来做一个早期推论(inferences)
我个人做了两个早期推理。。。

第一个说法：
时间越长，
感觉就会变得越浓，
好比酝酿良久的好酒
让人爱不释手～

第二个说法：
时间越长，
感觉就会变得越淡而无味
尤如泡久了的茶包
不再拥有它的吸引之处

时间与感觉之间的和谐性与时机是息息相关的
所以在对的时间遇上对的人才会幸福

时间与感觉有个共同点
它们都一样
变了
过去了
失去了
就再也回不来
没有人能改变那理论与结局～
(所以请珍惜眼前与身边的人)

~ 红豆生南国，
春来发几枝；
劝君多采颉，
此物最相思 ~

关灯~*

2008-11-22T16:36:00.000+08:00

你只给了我一句
说了不算数的言语
我只有权力觉得可惜

就算是全世界都在怀疑
我还是坚持要在一起
却不懂你已悄悄离去

爱情在你的诠释里
是否等於游戏
从来不说真心

与其被它折磨到底
找影子作伴侣
关了灯就不必在意

换个角度看着你
才看到你我的距离
是我对爱情太过相信

就算是全世界都已放弃
我还是紧紧握在手里
原来这就叫孩子气

你快乐了吗~*

2008-11-22T16:01:00.003+08:00

说过了从今以后
我们还会是好朋友
只是那牵过的手再握不住彼此的温柔
回避不了的碰头
眼神还期待些什么
就连基本的问候也会拥有让人迟疑的藉口
眉头出现了一丝皱
遇见你唇角会微微颤抖
我伪装的自我总在你面前变得失措
你快乐了吗？
你终于看到我的挣扎
就算是不小心不经意一切都留了个疤
你快乐了吗？
你从来不懂我的挣扎
就算是真心话你也从来不愿意面对吧？！
就算我失败吧...

你快乐了吗 - 何芸妮

Click on it to listen...
Another song which is meaningful for me...
Nice tho~
esp the lyric...
touched de...
The song is drama version...
so inside the lyric...
got a conversation like dis...

女：你答应过我，如果我们这样相遇，你会回避。
男：那算是我给你的承诺吧。
女：当然。
男：感情不在了，承诺还重要吗？

For me,
I think no matter what happen...
Feeling is there or vice versa...
Promise is still promise...
what u had promise...
bare in mind and dun break the promise...
otherwise u will just hurt the other side...
If u ever know u will break d promise..
never make any...
a broken promise will lead to a broken heart...
or maybe even worst~

LoLz..
Voice out my thoughts oni...=p
Anyway,
hope u guys guys d song^^

Never...

2008-11-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

Somehow I'm a bit regretting for being so "pia" in yesterday practicing...
Eventually Thurs ord walk whole day without proper rest...
Then,
Yesterday outside whole day...
Nid walking also but less...
But I go so pia practice carry ppl...
Sweat swaet sweat...
I 4get I cant carry heavy stuffs...=="
Outcome of being super blur and ngong ngong...
Zzz...
Make me today wan wake up oso give up d...
Kept lying on bed better...
My pinggang...>_<
So pain T_T
As like my pinggang is not my pinggang d...
Wuwuwu...
any suggestion to reduce pain..??
Dun tel me use Ogawa, Gintell or wat wat...
Even urut oso cant de...
Others suggestion..??
Haiz...
Lesson learn...
Hope no nxt time ~~"

无心再爱 ~*

2008-11-22T02:32:00.006+08:00

我想你能够明白
爱里我们都是像小孩学习中
慢慢走向未来

我想你能够明白
我不开口浓浓的关怀
一开始就不变直到未来
(如今却换来无情对待oh~~）

你说你已经厌倦了想要逃开
我的心已没了期待付出是否就能拥有你的爱
你说你已经明白了我为何还徘徊
我盼你能紧握但你已经松开
你说无心再爱

就这么结束不是我想要的结果
我依然希望你明白我的爱

你说你已经厌倦了想要逃开
我的心已没了期待付出是否就能拥有你的爱

你说你已经明白了我为何还徘徊
我盼你能紧握但你已经松开
我盼你能期待但你不再回来
我想挽救却换来你无情对待
你说
你说无心再爱

A song to recall...
Nice...=)
Memories flown all over again...
That year of today~

Below is the song of 无心再爱...
can click on it to listen...
is a Malaysian singer sing de^^
Wu Xin Zai Ai - Wu Jian Yi

Combination of day 20 & 21 Nov 08~*

2008-11-21T22:05:00.012+08:00

LoLz...
Din update my blog...
huhu...
Well...
kinda bz de...
den kinda tired...
now is vy blur and ngong ngong...
Juz now...
I watched tv watch til fall aslept...
Zzz...
sweat eh...
this is my 1st time like this...
Gosh~
U can imagine how tired I am...
Remind me of the 1st time I talked with someone in phone till I fall asleep...
haha XD
A sweet memory~
Lolz...
funny laa...

aihzz...
I gonna admit wat my sis said wat right...
sl33p fat nine rili where oso can sl33p...
wat oso can eat...
i eat a lot today as well...
Hihi...
went to ma Baker again...
Buy eat tarts =p
But i jz managed eat fruit tarts...
as chicken egg tart jz left 1...
let sis buy dat 1..
hehe..
Nice^^

Ok...
let me sum up 2days in one post...
yesterday since I din sl33p d of previous day...
then i still go out whole day with ping, windy, shen ping n li wen...
5gals go sot whole day...
I'm among them most normal 1...
Maybe I'm tiring plus hv illness oso...
haha~
shen ping n windy rili sot d de..XD
haha...
out v them wont bored...
listen their conversation oso funny n interesting...
haha =D
Had my hair cut oso...
err..
but jz my fringe...
dun plan cut the back of my hair...
somehow...
some reasons...
myb i still...
不舍得 ba~~~
Was an nice window shopping day...
altho tiring but still nice^^

Today almost whole day at Miri Chapter there...
Having training and meeting...
Well...
as I'm not in condition...
tiring n blur blur ngong ngong mood...
seriously..
when Vince n Cynthia talking about the history thing...
Some in some out...
and i rili hardly pay attention seeing the slides...
coz my eyes is painful...
I guess I rili face laptop too much d...
Luckily din pain til cry yet...(Altho not the 1st time d..)
If not I gonna suffer~
Rili good job for them..
nice^^
Sooner or later they will be having more unspoken consensus(默契)
that a good start and in future when dealing with stuffs...
In a group or team...
It is rili important to hv commitment amongst each other and is even better in a team hv unspoken consensus...
everything can do even smooth and perfect...
Twp potential future commandent...
Even CPR also praise them...
Haha...
CPR wanted to train two of them to become future commandent.../gg
haha...
all the best for them in becoming potential commandent..
Ush Ush~!!^^
Learn new stuff too tho~
hehe...
here is some photos of me n my sis...
who being ss of our "master piece" =p
wakaka...

[My patient so happy leh..hehe =D]

[New trend of fashion~]

[Hmm...I feel like I dun looked like a patient at all..~~"]

[I looked so silly in this photo~]

[CPR teaching Ping n Kit regarding triangle bandage..]

[My turn being bandage by sis~]

[Sis turn being bandaged by me^^]

[Happy sexy model patient..LoLz!]

[Darling Ping n Beloved SiS^^]

[Show muscle or the style of bandaging~ ^o)]

[Watch promoting~??]

[Though gulung cincin my sis peek-ing me =p]

Basically,
this two days time passes very faz as i hv stuff to deal with...
life live til fullnest..
LoLz...
full until i din sl33p...
Zzz...
my own problem laa...
aihzzz...
Later woke up nid deal v T-shirt design...
then nid think of games...
Gosh~
I rili nt good in games...
Less play station games oso...
i wonder wat ideas i can come out...
huhuhu...X(
Nid brain storming...
Hope I can think o some games...
ZzZ...
No confident~
Just hope everything go on smoothly...

Looking forward to nxt yr camp~??
Wil be my 1st camp tho~
Hopefully no cat cat dog dog around...
or any moving creatures...
although i hv some1 be my "personal 保镖" d...
still sumhow worry de...
if dun hv den no nid ma fan my 保镖...
LOLZ~
i dun wanna paiseh in fornt of so mny ppl...>_<"
Hopefully everything will be ok....

Note:
Left 5subjects Nosaj...
Add oil ya...
Baxia~!!
Ush Ush~!!
Fighting oo^^v

番外篇:
Is not good to be a blur person...
esp in nature u ord blur..
den less sleep n tireness make u even blur n ngong...
Kept on knocking stuff around today me...
bruises~
yet..
My leg scratched by the pail when i was bathing...
Zzz...
swt..
an ugly tatto on my leg now...
aihzz....
don't be like me...
错误的示范---Me =="
My panda eyes rili hard cure d...
bo bian~
Aihzzz...

LOL~! I'm insane~??

2008-11-20T03:56:00.017+08:00

Finally...
Haha...
Phewww~
Kinda tiring...
Yet now is 4am sth in the morning...
Gonna be 5am soon...
Of course i shud feel tiring and sl33py right..??
Hehe~
I know I'm ki siao de...
Got time sl33p dun sl33p...
So late d oso hvn sl33p...
Just finish do all the banner design...=D
All got 7designs...
Haha...
Yeah~!! [^^]v
Finally~
Wakaka~!!^^
But got 2 is quite similar...
which I acomplished on dat day in Room5...

Seriously i dun hv confident all are nice...
But all are my ori designs...
and I devote my love,sleeping time and efforts in doing that...
Hope everything will be going smoothly...

[There is a moment I din do work...Been think-ing dragon-fly for a while..Let thee know I so late sl33p..Thee will say me.."so naughty..so late din go sl33p"..Can guess so d...Asked me hold on and u'll be back..Zzz..Ended up..I dunno wat shud I say..Well..Get use to it d oso..No disappointment..No sad or watsoever feelings...As thee owez like that one...Don't expect much from thee... Dont worry~ I understand de..U're bz...Bz person is equally as forgetful person...I guess bz de person mostly heartless one~]

Here I nid to thank my unformal partner who lend me his helping hand...
Liab help out a lot de...
Haha...
Besides contributing ideas for me...
In the same time,
he managed to help me design 1 logo~
I personally like it very much...
It's simple yet 有个性, unique plus d most thg i 欣赏 is it's creative enough...
which i unable think out of the box yet to design one of those as I've been restricted by those formal thoughts...
Coz MRC,VAD-57 always give me a formal feeling...
that's y i unable do another new version of banner after the blog headline...
Luckily he voluntee to help me find "ling gan"...
LoLz~
In the same time,
he this good partner accompany me few days d in msn..
where I can while doing work...
while chatting...
Thus I wont dat easily felt sl33py and can seek for help oso..
hehe...=p
Thanks Liab...
Sincerely from my heart...=)

Yesh~!!
I shud be happy huh~??
Definately not VAD club torturing me...
I willing to do til so early de...
Due to later I nid go out v my Darling...
Hehe...
Sure go out will be whole day de...
Now dun do finish...
Tmr friday I think I gonna be doom...
LoLz...
b4 9am nid arrive d...
which mean I nid woke up around 7am lik dat...
Finish early better laa...
As I've the "ling gan" and mood to go on doing...
Addicted d~??
Hmm...^o)
No gua...
Kinda stress de from 1st wanna design logo for VAD...
Not easy as all the issue nid take into account...
Y u wan use dis colour..??
Y u wan use dis shape..??
Argh~
say abt dis...
I hvn find the meanings yet...
colour ord got the url frm Liab...
The rest tmr night I nid do research...
aihzz...
Partner "hilang" d...
Of course nid independent..XD
In actual fact I dun hv a partner de...
that's y is informal one~
They din assign a partner for me...
hehe...
Accidently I found one...=p

I personally design 4logo..
but those 3 hv their similarity...
Just shape different only...
But there is 1...
Rili time consuming...
Luckily the outcome Im quite satisfy v it...
hehe...
Is an archivement for me I guess =p

Hope friday will have a smooth training, smooth meeting and nice dinner..
(not sure will join dinner o not..I'm kinda tiring..Zzz~many days din sl33p good d...Aihzz..)
I din plan to send out any of the designs to any committe which will be going to meeting...
I dun wan later I will bu shuang again...
coz sum1 simply change my design without discuss with me...
I'm still somehow 耿耿于怀...
But no bu shuang d...
I'm not small gas..
is the matter of principle...
Blekk...
This is the 2nd time d...
I wonder I can tahan how long if such matter kept on occuring over and over again...
Haizz...
Hopefully no 3rd time...
suan liao...
Endure~
Dun1 make issue...
Just fa xie here can jor..
Haha...
My place for expressing all my feelings here...
My freedom...
At least release anything at here wont hurt anyone...??
Hopefully...
i think just two member unable attend the meeting...??
So I ord sent it to them for voting...
I guess everything shud be done d..??
I guess so...
Eyes wan close d and mind start mcc liao...
Dunno what am I typing d oso...
LOL~

Till here~~~^^
I guess I wont be sleeping d oso...
haha...
B4 8am nid go campus or Darling Ping place d....
As sis nid go campus got exam...
Plus now...
I got one more important stuff nid to do...
where I think i shud say it out here...
Hihi...
Later she will kill me...XD

Anyway,
Have a nice day to all ya ;)

Not get use to it...??

2008-11-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

I guess I feel kinda not get use to it...
Without that someone accompany me chat 通宵...
LoLz...
Since past few days we always chat till very early morning...
From first was I accompany someone study because someone still got exam...
Then after that someone finish exam d...
Nothing to do..
So become someone accompany me chat till early morning as I got stuffs to deal with...
B4 that always I'm the one who say goodbye first...
This time that someone say goodbye first...
LoLz...
Feel kinda weird...
I think I kinda 不舍得 that someone...
haha...
As continuously chat so many days d...
LoLz...
Bro aka partner...
Have a pleasant journey tomorrow morning...
HappY Holiday too^^
Enjoy~*

What's wrong~??

2008-11-19T17:49:00.003+08:00

Recently my mood owez easily swings...
feel like wan lia gong d...
Zzzz...
All stuffs come sekaligus...
unexpected de all come...
aihzz...
suan liao...
I'm bu shuang-ing sum1 now...
im not a person who cnt negotiate n cant talk along...
im open minded...
I'm willing to accept comments...
I'm easy to talk along...
but pls laa...
wan do anythg..
wan change anythg...
b4 u wanna changes...
can u talk v me 1st..??
discuss with me..??
I dislike ppl do thg without discuss v me especially whn involving my part...
Sound small gas..??
But in fact...
I'm not...
Is the matter of principle...
Respects~
Communications~
That two are equally important...
Respect ursef and respect others...
then people just will respect u...
Am I looked too fierce to be approachable..??
Nah~
I dun think so...
Often smile like siao zha bo v my fren around...
Hoho...
aihzz...
Someone teach me how to do ppl better...
I really dunno how to be a human d...
Haizzz...

气球~*

2008-11-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任你选择
黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任我选择
飞的高高越远越好
剪断了线它就死掉
寿命短短高兴就好
喜欢就好没大不了
越变越小越来越小
快要死掉也很骄傲
你不想说就别再说
我不想听不想再听
就把一切誓言当作汽球一般随它而去
我不在意不会在意放它而去随它而去
气球
飘进云里
飘进风里
结束生命
气球
飘进爱里
飘进心里
慢慢死去

I'm really worry~!!

2008-11-19T15:42:00.005+08:00

Die die die~!!
I feel like I'm in deep shit now~!!!
HOLY SHIT~!!!
I dunno how~!!!
Want LIA GONG d~!!
Seemed like that someone who hacked my xiaoyu_13_6@hotmail.com that account last time...
was not trying to hack my that account this time...
but using my email address...
to register something like skype stuff...
nid buy credit...
and what got payment summore de...
is called VoipBuster~
Shit laa...!!
Will how or not?!!
Cant cancelled account...
cant change email address...
ARHHHHH~!!!
I reallly dunno how laa...
Frustrated~!!!
Hope everything fine...
shit laa......
Hope he's not proffesional hacker..
Zzzzzzz...
Argh~!!!!!!!!!
Really "fan" arr~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Only one online and I able I can ask and seek for help....
Mr Desperate~!!!!
Thanks God...
He assure me shud be ok...
as he dun hv my credit card number..
I dun hv any oso..
so shud be ok de...
hopefully..T_T
But still nid becareful...
Wuwuwu...
still feel unsecure...
Haizz...............

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Get Liab assurance oso...
so 2person say ok d...
more than 1...
plural...
so shud b ok...
aihzz...
listen his advise go change password d oso...
shud b ok d gua...
Pray hard nothing will happen then...
Sigh~~~~~~~~~~~

Another survey~*

2008-11-17T13:15:00.004+08:00

How u feel now..??
-Neutral...

Sad~??
-Not really...still ok...

Hate someone..??
-No..

Like someone..??
-Yea..still like...

Will continue on liking..??
-Time and feeling will help me decide...

Willing to wait..??
-Yea..?? I guess so...

Still feeling unsecure..??
-No...everythg settled...

U dont scare might get hurt..??
-wat will come...sure nid come...just let it be then...

Plan to be persistence..??
N-o...Jz let it be and hope everythg going on smoothly...

What's ur status now..??
-Still it's complicated...

Why complicated..??
-Zzz...I dunno how to explain...

what u plan to do now..??
-Feel like punching someone..being violence..wakaka~!(kidding..)nothing much can do

What u doing now...??
-Blogging...

Have a good sleep yesterday..??
-Not bad...but 5am sth jz sleep...haha =x panda eyes oso getting serious den b4...

Eaten ur meals..??
-Ermm...hehe...eat nothing yet...not feel like eating...but got drink water...

Any unfinish stuff haven settle..??
-Yea...banner of VAD hvn design out..no idea...no "lin gan"...

Afraid and worry of anything now..??
-Yea...Being MC dat matter...results release...my baba...

Content with current life..??
-Yea...my peaceful back by my side^^ my smiles planning to go a holiday...but
somehow someone bring my smile back...haha...Thanks...(u knw who u're)

What do u wan to do the most now..??
-Feel like wan meet my friends in labuan...wanting to see Nosaj...he ever said might come holidays in miri..but i guess his schedule is pack...

Who u miss the most now...??
-Family..

Who u wanna see now..??
-no...im too ugly to meet any1 now...xp

1st thing u do after u woke up...??
-Open gate...let the uncle help me cut the grass ~~"

How's the weather of today..??
-Sunny mix with gloomy...

Planning to hv ur hair cut soon..??
-Maybe..not sure...

Last called received..??
-Yesterday...An unknown person from KL...but i din managed to answer d phone..

What song u're listening now..??
Goodbye-The melody

～小雨七部曲～

2008-11-17T12:27:00.003+08:00

突袭豪雨。。。
轰隆轰隆。。。
屋顶瓦片清晰听见。。。
风猛吹四周。。。
仿佛向世界炫耀它强劲没人能及～
××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
浩大漫长夜雨。。。
不弱风也。。。
劈里啪啦。。。
豪迈展放。。。
仿佛清洗大地是它必完成之任务～
×××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
短暂数秒钟。。。
拖延半载之事成定局。。。
或许直飞悲伤末界。。。
亦或疲惫不堪。。。
无痛无泪～
×××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
环境世事突变。。。
吾心境。。。
无改变。。。
拥有平静之心。。。
毫无涟漪～
××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××

生活平静，
愉快渡过；
安祥心境，
情绪化无，
心跳亦不再～
×××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
无悲无痛，
无爱无恨；
无情无绪，
无忧无虑；
回归自我～
××××××××××××××××××××××××××××××
时间进度。。。
快慢区别。。。
时空差距。。。
永恒是否。。。
意义不再～

Last time I wrote de...
Feel like wanna post it up again...
Hehe...

外滩十八号~*

2008-11-17T12:07:00.001+08:00

下着雨的夜
（太熟悉的街）
所有的感觉
（已没有那么热烈）
下着雨的夜
（心痛的感觉）
刹那的视线
（黑夜里天空下着雪）
再多的理由
太多的借口
都无法代替
（你对我爱的感觉）
再多的画面
太多的理由
都变成要结束的一切

我不知道你在想什么
还是那个地点那条街哦
（那分手的夜）
那缠绵的地点
难道是爱的天平已经倾斜
我很明白你在想什么
还是那个地点那条街哦
(相约的地点)
结束的一切
很明白爱并不是你要的一切

下着雨的夜
所有的感觉
下着雨的夜
刹那的视线
太多的理由
都无法代替
太多的画面
都变成要结束的一切

我不知道你在想什么
还是那个地点那条街哦
那分手的夜
那缠绵的地点
难道是爱的天平已经倾斜
我很明白你在想什么
还是那个地点那条街哦
相遇的地点
结束的一切
很明白爱并不是你要的一切

所有混乱的感觉
无可救药的一切
太多一切太多亲切
太多伤痛的理由让我无法拒绝

我不知道你在想什么
你很明白
还是那个地点那条街哦
那分手的夜
那缠绵的地点
难道是爱的天平已经倾斜
我很明白你在想什么
我不知道
还是那个地点那条街哦
相遇的地点
结束的一切
很明白爱并不是你要的一切
(我很明白你在想什么)
(还是那个地点那条街)
相遇的地点
结束的一切
很明白爱并不是你要的一切

Feeling calm...

2008-11-17T10:36:00.002+08:00

It seems like the feeling of peaceful somehow successfully find me back...
Glad ur back by my side...=)
Glad u approached me earlier than b4...
Everything just back to normal...

If I said nothing happened b4...
it will be too hurt to say so...
is a lie as well...
Feeling of unsecure gone...
Coz I 've found the reason for it...
When a matter u will never know the outcome...
we will always say...
~顺其自然...船到桥头自然直...~
Maybe I shud say such words in this matter as well bah~?

Care is still care...
Hardly to stop...
As I do care all those people(family and frenz) forever and always...
But I guess you do not nid much of my cares...
Ur life is perfect without my interference...
I wont spoil your systematic perfect life...
That's the only promise I can give you...

Sun shine shines so brightly today...
As if wanna give me encouragements...
Helped me add oil...
But still I like rainny day...
Haha...
Reason~??
coz I'm 小雨...
so i like rainy day lorr...
Hehe...

Not every question hv a fix answer...
Not everything have the same outcome as previous case...
Being persistance..??
I guess no..??
Everything just let it be bah...
Want come de...
No matter how still will come...
Make thing simple but not complicated (CPR 2008)

Hope this time you wont leave me so fast...
Peaceful-ness...

Dont feel like....

2008-11-17T04:32:00.007+08:00

When there is time to sleep...
Dun go sleep...
When no time sleep...
Wanting to sleep so desperately...
No just this...
many thing oso like that...
too mny cases to portray...
The above 1 is one of the thousand or even more...
Human beings...
haizz...
Use this words describe is most suitable den ever...
犯贱~

I guess I rili crazy d...
Out of sight...
Out of mind...
I dun feel like sleeping at all...
maybe due to sth dat happened jz nw...
LoLz...
Hopefully is settle d...
I nt sure...
other side concluded summary d...
so as for me...
I shud make adjustment as well...
End n stop~!
b4 stuffs getting worst n more complicated...
I dun1 mess everything up...
I really dun1 dat happen...
dats all...
not more den that...

Liab...
Thanks for sharing ur funny matter jz nw...
Make me laugh back de...
LoLz...=D
Final paper d oo...
Add oil...
Ush Ush Fighting~!!^^
Rmbr ur promise =p
As retun...
I will listen ur advice...
cnt sl33p oso hv some sl33p..
Thanks again....=]

My philosophy:

~Whoever treat me good, I will treat u better ;
Whoever care me, I will care u double in return;
Whoever give me ur heart as being sincere, i will give u my heart and treat u sincerely in return;
Whoever treat me badly, I will just forget what u had did;
Whoever hurt me, I will be thankful, grateful, forgive n forget;
(Coz dat person teach me sth, let me grow more mature and gain experiences)
Whoever trample my sincerity, sorry...
I hardly can forgive u...~

~I'm "tame" yet i can be "fierce" as well...So dont ever make me show u my tigeress face...Everything have it own limitation...dun ever do sth over and beyond my limit...U will know how scary I am...Try to challenge me if u wanna hv a try...I wont let u regret in being so brave to challenge my bad tempered..~

Escape~*

2008-11-16T21:46:00.007+08:00

Wanna escape to a place called Neverland
Where there is just happiness and peaceful-ness
Without sorrows,annoyance of trufts and troublesomes to fuss over
Wanna escape to lavender farm
Where I will leave the hustles and bustles and being calm by the fragrant
Without concerning anyone and whatsoever
Wanna escape far enough of my own unsecured feelings
Where I will not be frustrated and hate the way it make me feels
Without restricting but letting myself being self-indulgence once again
Wanna escape selfish-ly even though it sounds ignorance
Where I can find back my freedom and laughters
Without caring anymore what is good and bad for me
Wanna escape to find back the first of me
Where I can smiles, laughs and plays like no tommorrow
Without feeling faithless towards the people, matters and the world
Wanna escape just to search the purpose of living
Where the trufts and answers will lies
Without being self persistence and stubborn again~

Day of 14 Nov~*

2008-11-15T20:33:00.010+08:00

Shud update this yesterday tho~
But...
Hehe..
kinda tiring d...=x

Yesterday morning...
Still nid to wake up early due to VAD meeting...
I tot i can hv a good sleep..
afterall~
I ord finished exam wat...
who knws...
4am sth i woke up..=="
My routine being mess up by the exam period...
Zzz...

Managed to woke up before getting thee morning call
Suprisingly i received a lil present from thee
is rili nice...
Used a lot of time dealing v it I guess...
Somehow face to face talk with thee still I will paiseh i guess...
Well...
I guess thee dunnO Im sort of nervous oso...
My brain are blank...
Even tho back home jz realise I mong cha cha de received ur present without asking thee y suddenly gave me present...
swt mysef ~~"
Still thanks for the gift V******...
Thanks for willing to spend time making it for me...=)

In the meeting,
Well...
I'm not in good condition in fact after some time...
Hv a sudden stomach pain...
Rili lack of mood d dat time...
Wonder izzit my Iceland aunty wan take a visit d...
LoLz...~~"
Getting worst after lunch resting at Ping's hse...
Pain nearly 40mins+...
Constant pain add up with huge pain...
Repeatedly like this 40mins...
Zzzz......
Ended up...
Fever again lorr...
Night of 13 Nov oso like dat d...
huhu~
Suffer-ing~~~

Luckily I still beinng able out v others...
Due to weather problem...
Din go hiking at laz...
But went shopping n loitering...XD
5gals in Lee Ting's red car...
Wootzz~
Below are some of the outing photos...
Dun hv the complete set yet...
Haha...

Supper time at 金屋...
LoLz...
Two plate Rm10...
Not bad huh~??

Early morning of today...
As still not sleepy...
chatting with Liab n CPR plus Carol...
Somehow...
i feel that...
I manage to know them more then thee...
Even spending time with them also much more compare to thee...
Thinking of stuffs of thee make me kept 钻牛角...
Luckily got sweet heart v me...
Thanks...
Argh~
i jz hate mysef being like dat...
I hate that kind of feeling oso...
I will ignore...
Ignore ignore ignore...
Prevention of getting mysef cry again...
In front of thee I seemed like always un-conciously say out everything...
This is the very 1st time instead of smile...
U gave me a cry...
Haizz...
What the heck am I doing...??
Maybe I rili jz eat full nothing to do so I go and think so much...
Zzz~~~

Overall yesterday is a nice day..
Long time din out v Lee Ting d oso...
Having a great time v her...
I bought something for myself oso...
A new purse^^
Finally found the type I like...
My purse spoil since laz sem until now...
din manage to buy 1 to replace...
Sorry Mr. Desperate...
Not I dun1 take good care of the purse u gv me..
is coz due to depreciation and as time passes...
stuff jz spoilt easily...>_<"
Hope this new purse will last long...

六世达赖·十戒诗~*

2008-11-13T09:31:00.001+08:00

第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。
第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。
第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。
第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。
第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。
第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。
第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。
第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。
第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。
第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。
但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。
安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

真正愛你的男人~*

2008-11-13T09:28:00.005+08:00

真正愛你的男人，是...

‧抱起來很溫暖，囉唆起來很煩，在身邊討厭，看不見又很懷念的人。
‧吃剩下一半的麵不要浪費，他會接過去幫妳吃乾淨的人。
‧大冰腳貼在他大腿弄暖，他即使很冷，也不會把妳腳踢開的人。
‧一起去大賣場買東西，總是比妳多提兩大袋，還要空出手牽妳的人。
‧逛街，總是從頭到尾『良性勸導』妳不要亂花錢的人。
‧月經來，抓到妳偷吃紅豆冰，會很生氣罵妳的人。
‧妳生大病，他卻比你還要辛苦的人。
‧出門前，妳相信他的眼光多於鏡子的一個人。
‧把買衛生棉已經當成每個月記得採買的男人。
‧吵完架做錯事，還會厚臉皮跑來牽妳手的人。
‧過了n週年的戀愛紀念日後，就會忘記情人節、聖誕節存在的人。
‧為了看現場轉播的棒球大聯盟，敢把可愛的妳推到旁邊涼的人。
‧很少送妳花，卻常愛送妳垃圾袋、衛生棉、水果 .. 的人。
‧沒事一定會窩在妳家，有事還是窩在妳家，讓妳開始懷疑他是不是沒有朋友的人。
‧最喜歡看妳開心的大笑，然後也對著妳傻笑的人。
‧漏接妳電話，就會打爆妳手機的人。
‧養妳吃飯、養妳看電影、養妳買小東西，動不動就開始為以後練習怎樣包養妳的人。
‧最害怕討厭聽到妳啜泣，只要聽到妳哭，還是會不辭千里的飛奔到妳身邊的人。
‧偷偷的為妳做了很多事，卻從來不和你邀功的人。
‧已經認為自己的手臂是枕頭的人。
‧膽敢會和妳搶遙控器，最後卻只能陪妳看慾望城市的人。
‧老是可以讓周遭好朋友感到好奇的人。
‧他一不在，妳就會心煩意亂心不在焉，而開始很想念他的人 ..

親愛的女人
你身邊若有這樣一個男人
妳一定要珍惜

A nice article I wanna share with all of u especially gals^^
Appreciate that someone if he/she already by your side...
[If there really such guy in this world(as mentioned in the article), he's cute~! =D
haha...Warm as well^_^ A good guy(maybe a good bf n husband as well)...Worth to let him hold ur hand forever...]

+**+~牵手是牵心~+**+

JuSt Be-inG LaMe~*

2008-11-13T09:10:00.002+08:00

Less contact...
Less meet-ing up...
Less chats...
Less talks...
Less communicating...
Less disturb-ing...
Less everything up...

I guess...
I won't miss thee so much...=p
Just being l-a-m-e a while...
LoLz~
Have the mood to lame...

Lame = self entertain-ing

Below is an old lame joke that I made~*

甲：“你还爱”(他) 吗？”
乙：“ 当然咯？”
甲：“ 为何？？”
乙：“因为爱屋及乌啊。。。=p”
甲：“。。。。。。 ”（倒～！）
乙：“ 呵呵。。。没有啦，开玩笑。。。其实是因为爱。。。所以爱咯。。。”
甲（昏了〕
其实那个(他)是陪伴乙很久的抱枕...

Got let my lame joke "cold" dao mah~?? xp
Hope later will be a smooth exam...

7 things~*

2008-11-12T19:24:00.004+08:00

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do

B4 having law contract exam...
In the car...
and even though after law exam...
In the car...
i just kept on repaeting listen this song..
LoLz...
Addicted d I guess~? ^o)
Hmmm...
Maybe suit my current feeling...??
Haha...
DunnO~
Now I just feel so tiring...
Hope tmr end exam can hv good night sl33p...
Or do sth crazy...
Wat will dat be huh~??
LOLz...
B4 that day come...
Let's jz study til early morning and see how I die in that subject again~

From these few days not having good sl33p...
I had earn sth in return~
What are those stuffs~??
Let me tell u...
Pimples...
Panda eyes even worst...
(Become more ugly~?)
Tiring looked...
Blur blur...
Ngong ngong...
No mood to eat...
Just feel like wan sl33p...
No mood study but force to...
stress~!!
No mood chatting also...
But I'll always have the mood to blogging =p
(coz i can shout out loud here...>_<)
1day can post so mny posts...
U also know why...
If not stress...
then I'm too free...
Or I've idea in writing sth...
Currently impossible I'm too free...
So...
Yea~!!
I'm just stress~!!

♂ vs. ♀ (in argue-ing their own thoughts)

2008-11-12T09:23:00.007+08:00

It might be easy to persuade others...
Giving others comforts...
It's easy to just say it out...
But when every thing come to your own self...
You will know how hard the level of making yourself calm down and don't think too much...

"It's ok...Nothing is impossible~!!"
Those kind of words...
Maybe just give 2minutes effect on yourself...
After that few moment of self hypnotesis...
your mind will automatically fly to that so called "problem" again...
Without having proper answers,replies and explainations...
such matter will keep on going like "mary go round" in one's mind...
Unless you just ignore or being busy in order to avoiding yourself to think...

Guys might not have those kind of problem as their mind always being straight forward...(rarely/seldom)
They hardly will think too much (Most of them)
But gals,
The problem with gals are they often think too much...
They always will think until very far...
(especially bad side I guess~)
Even though a matter might already fully implied or shown that that was the facts or that was the outcomes...

Well~
Due to stubborn-ness/persistence...
Their mouth say
"I'm ok"....
"I'm fine"...
Yet,
They're not...
Not at all...
Maybe they just don't want others to worry about them...
Or maybe conviencing others is much more easier than conviencing themselves..
[But there are exeptions...Not everytime is like that...Maybe if they add on the word "seriously"...u can choose to believe them but not fully..]

Ever heard before...
"If a gal say yes, maybe it mean no...
If a gal say no, maybe it mean yes...
(Which mean yes~)
If a gal say I dunno, maybe that's the answer of it..."
[LoLz~ Well..I not sure how true is that statement...I guess such matter not always occur...Depends...Maybe mostly when they're being playful..Those tentative true statement might be applicable or not afterall...]

♪ღ -| 一心向善 |- ღ♫

梦~

无题

Nothing speacial =p

无题~

当 [嘴] + [思绪] + [心] + [脑海] = [大家] 一起开派对~*

What Color Do I Need~??

" ~CPR~ "

猜不透~*

七个对不起~~*

My hse flooded~*

雨的论解~*

14th April~*

SIENZ~*

50 sen~*

无题~*

做不了爱人我们做什么~??

自由~*

"...IF..."

Current Life~*

最幸福的事~*

永远永远~*

一年里的12个情人节

Untouched by The Veronicas~*

Craps~*

Am I...

SS~??

永远在身边---大嘴巴

无题~*

原来你就在我身边

太难搞

台北21℃

Random photos~*

Her story~*

My sayings for this very early Jan~*

Memories~*

Mix ≠ Mess

Rains come for a visit in Xmas at Miri~*

25.12.08

Labuan Christmas Atmosphere~*

Mathematics vs. Love

冬至快乐^^

If...

不够成熟~*

Tanjobi Omedeto to my Beloved sis^^

不顾一切的爱...痴心绝对...我懂了她...手放开...你们要快乐...远走高飞...

位置~*

另一个钻牛角尖的时段...

Things happened today~*

安息吧...

Blessing...Attraction...

原来我什么都不是...

The Feeling of Secure~*

Hot Headache Evening~*

Survey....

无泪熊~*

Tattoo~*

多元化的分手理由~*

Saturday Nitez~*

拖鞋男人~*

让他学学疼爱你的36计！

男人，学会读懂女人的十个眼神儿

小心 碰不得的七种星座男

还童日~*

On duty for Sarawak Junior Open of Golf Competition~*

Random post~*

我用一首Demo跟你告白XD

Peaceful Day~*

泪~*

郁闷～～～～～

一语惊醒梦中人...??

Top three things I hope I can realising it soon~*

Hmm....

Most touching present I ever received~*

暂时休假不做女人~*

可恶~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

并不是每次跌落都有再爬起来の机会

Having holiday now yet I don't feel like I'm having one~*

时间 vs. 感觉~*

关灯~*

小心碰不得的七种星座男